childhood ambitions

I was reading around random blogs when I came across one that asked us the question,'what is your childhood ambition?'.I remembered numerous teachers asking me that question before.
At primary 1 I decided I wanted to be a teacher because drawing on the blackboard seems fun and those colourful chalks were so attractive.But after seeing the less glamourous side of being a teacher,[eg:cleaning up shit,facing whiny kids everyday etc etc] I decided those chalks were not worth it.
At primary 3 I wanted to be a botanist after I was first introduced to science.I love catching all those pretty butterflies in the garden.But after seeing my smiley face ball falling into the school botanic garden pond I decided to hate science forever as it had swallowed up my ball.
At primary 4 I wanted to be a dancer or preferably a ballerina after seeing some of my friends prancing around in their ballerina gear in school.They all looked so fancy with their tutus hanging around their thighs and that neat bun!But I soon realise its just too gay and girlish for me.
At primary 6 I wanted to be a lawyer but my hopes were dashed as idiotic me only scored a 204 for my psle.How to be lawyer?
Right now I wana be a dj.But who knows what the future will hold for me.
well..gotta dash.
to0dles`.

I conquered something today which I have never thought I would be able to do.
I watched 'The Eye 10" without fainting,crying,running out of the theater,vomitting or beheaving strangely after the movie.Of course I screamt,not those full blown screams or whatever and I also hid behind my niece pink handkerchief during those more terrifying parts.hahas.Me and mella keep sort of screaming together at those particularly scary parts whilst elix kept grabbing kahyuen arm.hahas.I had nachos,popcorn and 1 cheesy hotdog.Pretty full.But I spent most of my time hiding behind my handkerchief.hahas.I still manage to get what is the movie about lah.Can't possibly spent $8.50 just to scare myself and hide behind my handkerchief.
The line at the cinema was damn long sia.Luckily I booked the night before with my dad visa.hahas.With visa you can do anything.AS IF.But luckily we were smart enough to book in advance.You can just imagine those envious looks on those fools who were queuing.hahs.Im just kidding la.But I keep remembering those visa adverts.hahas.dotS.Oh ya...and before they played the movie they had this lame advertisement on the drug thingy.lols."bai tian wo men shi xue sheng,wan shang wo men shi brothers,wo men wan wo men zi qi the rule,bu guan pia ren xiang she me".Something along this lines lah.Ever since sophia told me about this in such a hilarious way everytime I come across this advert I find it funny though its message that it is trying to pass to us is not.
After the movie,we went to bugis to take the traditional pictures and walked around bugis.Me and kahyuen bought a small purse/wallet from pmk.We walked around more and had dinner at Mos burger.hahas.Yifang eat until so messy cause her ingredients keep dropping then in the end she had to scrap them all off.Went to compass point and bought ray and hengry pressies with them more before joining my family who were already there.Bought a billabong sling bag by the way.My mom commented that I seem to have carried my puma sling bag for quite some time now so buy lor.hahas.
Still searching for people to accompany me to watch the avril lavigne concert not to mentions funds.hais.
to0dles`

2nd term has started.*spits*
It didn't get off with such a fantastic start.
For one,Mrs Ang spoke to us.
Next,I have to study for physics,chinese,social studies and emath test for next week.
AND its just the 2nd week of the term.How extremely sad.
Currently rushing with my dnt homework cause I slacked too much during the one week holidays.
Stayed back for physics asp today.Unfair lohs,whole class have to stay.Spent the whole time decorating my A4 size writing pad,staring out of the window and of course reading under the table.Should have just lied to Mr Tan that I have to go to SYF dance practice.Hais.But I'm too guai to lie la.How sad once more.
Going to watch eye10 with elix they all this friday.hahas.My very first horror movie.*search for popcorn box to hide head in*.Hope I don't chicken out halfway through the movie.
Wish me luck*.
to0dles`

Yesterday's dinner was unsatisfyingly expensive...in a way.
Tell me...who won't feel guilty after literally swallowing a $800+ seafood dinner.Actually the right amount is after dividing it by 12 ways but ah who cares.Halfway through dinner some of us were already itching to visit the Mac outlet next door.Where normal food actually exist.
After dinner,they came to our house.The guys hogged the comp while the girls read in the room while munching on assorted junk food.hahas.The guys came in and we decided to play thati and heart attack.Lols.Quite fun la.I also learnt something.I have a dumbass for a brother.His reaction time is even slower than elix's.Hais.Sia sway me nia.haha.jkjk.
Im pretty exhausted today.Had less than 7 hours of snooze time.My mom actually wanted to drag the whole family to pasir ris beach.But I just refused to go.RUN?You actually want ME to go RUNNING?Are you out of your frigging mind????Its a sundays for godsakes.So in the end we didn't go.Muahahahas.And here I am blogging.
to0dles`

Changed my blogskin.Had nothing better to do.
This task occupied me for the better half of the day.
15minutes more to my 2 hour long math tuition.
Dread already seeping into my heart.
*sighs*
How I wish I could escape it.
The whole morning I keep thinking up of numerous excuse to escape it.
Door just opened.
How it startled me into thinking that it was the teacher.
*whew*.
10minutes more.
Someone kill me now!
*speaks into loudspeakers*
'IF ANYONE HAVE THE URGE TO KILL CASSANDRA KOH,NOW IS YOUR CHANCE!GRAB IT BEFORE ITS GONE!'
*whole neighbourhood rushes into my house*
Ya right.
50cent's candyshop blasting through my speakers now.
So not in da mood for it.
Well...I guess its time for me to prepare.
to0dles'.

I got so much on my mind now.Troubling and distracting thoughts.
But I can't spill it out here.
Things aren't just what it seems anymore.
I understand now life can never ever be perfect.
Even if you sort of have everything that you need.
Kinda frustrating.
Suddenly,the past didn't seem so grim.
*sighs*
I really feel like going into a coma now.
Wake up 2 weeks later and everything will be fine and dandy.
Oh who am I kidding???
to0dles.
Duty calls.
HMK SUKS.

I'm back in school for Amath make-up lesson.
*glooms*
5 hours of Amath.
5 freaking hours learning about Amath.
300mins of amath.18000seconds of amath.
Its practically the duration of a normal school day.
Just the thought of it is enough to make me gasp.
y0z pass by t0 say h!!!!!_kar
Erm sorry for that RUDE disruption by kah yuen.
hahas.jkjk.
Im currently messing about with my geometery sketch thingy...pulling the graph lines here and there senselessly.
Im bored!
Woke up at 750am this morning.
Everyone is slacking big time,none really caring about completing our assignment.
Well cept for those exceptional few...namely mr oym.
sheesh.whatever!~
I am really just babbling here but this beats doing my amath.
*Sighs*
We still have a test later.
Argh.
After looking at my sets worksheets for around an hour plus yesterday night,I still don't really get what is sets.
I am so gona fail my amath test.
Yupp.=)
Anyways shall stop disturbing you..
Going to do my work le.
To0dles.Ciao.Adios.Bye.Zai Qian.
As you can see Im pretty unwillingly to leave you.
hahas.
yaya.cut the crap cassie.
lols.
cya.

I actually wanted to rant my pissyness because I was and still is sick on my birthday.
However,I have already accepted my fate and decided to look at the bright side instead of ranting n raving like a loony mad goon-do.
THANK YOU ELIX.CARMELLA.CHERYL AND JIAYUN FOR THE ASHLEE SIMPSON CD.
THANK YOU PEIYUN AND SULING FOR THE CUTE TOP.
THANK YOU YANSHAN FOR THE CUTE CUP.
THANK YOU QIULIN FOR THE HANDPHONE HOLDER.
THANK YOU JUSTINA.WENLING AND MAOPEI FOR THE 2 CUTE SOFT TOY THINGY.
THANK YOU KANGQI FOR THE TEDDY BEAR.
THANK YOU DANIEL.HENGTHYE AND THE REST OF THE GUYS FOR THE ROBBIE WILLIAMS CD.
THANK YOU RAYMOND AND ROGER FOR THE NICE PHOTO FRAME.
LUV Y'ALL.
will thank more people after they have given me their presents.
haha.
jkjk.
Birthday wasn't all that crappy even though I wasn't feeling all that normal.
But if I fall sick next year on my birthday once more I will kill myself.
Twice is already too much.I can definately live without the third time.
to0dles.
ps:happy bdae to chooyeow also and btw how much is the cake????I really want to pay for it.

Yesterday and today has been pretty interesting.
It was our school sport's day yesterday.
Went there by peiyun father lorry.haha.
We all kinda look like the extras from the ring 2 by the end of the ride.
Arrived at tampines stadium at around 1215pm.Ate Mac and ice popsicle.
People started streaming in by 1240pm.
Me and elix were actually hanging around in centuraus.But was chased out by one of the teachers.
So I went to scorpius section and I spot no familiar face.Peiyun comes up to me and asked if I wanted to buy centuraus house t-shirt.In other words,I will be jumping house.Seeing that all my friends in scorpius is running I made a wild choice and bought that lousy red shirt for $5.My ticket to centaurus.I become a traitor.A unfaithful follower.So sue me.
Anyways,yanshan also betrayed her house.hahas.
After that,py.just.ky.suling and me went to tampines mall to eat kfc.
We then took 72 to hougang mall.Freaking long bus journey.
Went home at around 7 plus and celebrated my mom birthday.
Today was tiring.Wasn't feeling all that good.Slept during chinese and geo lesson.Wrote rubbish for geo st.
After school,I hung around peiyun so called 'duty station'.
Damn sissy tan.
He just simply refuses to let me even have a mere glance at it until my parents speak to him.
I waited for like 3 hours.But he left.
Nevermind.
I cheered myself up with food.
Haha.
This time we bullied the sec1 into giving us food from their class barbeques.
hahas.
chooyeow.raymond.daniel.hengthye.sinyan.stewart.junfei and many more kept taking food from them.
Like having a competition of who can get the best and most food.
haha.pretty hilarious.
I had marshmellows.sausages.chips.orange juice.otah from cy.
Had sandwiches from hengthye.
Had chips from daniel.
Had ice lemon tea from raymond.
Had marshmellows from shuchen also.
Was pretty full.
haha.
In the end mr zaidi chased out all the upper sec students though.
So we ended our rendezvous.
Received my results also.
Were disatisfied with my math results.
hais.
Others were okay.
All in the range of b3 and above.
Barely pass my chi but I don't give a damn.
to0dles.

Haven't been blogging up till late.
Shall blog on cheryl birthday party today.
I reached her house at around 6 plus after going to shan house.
Arrived a little breathless and hot cause I had been walking for the whole day.
Walked in the room and the first thing I noticed that was practically all the girls wore black tops and the girls and guys were like hanging in seperate portions of the house.
haha.dots.
We sang despo love songs in cheryl room.watch la pi xiao xin in her living room.played water bombs on the top storey of her carpark.hang around in her computer room or whatever and went home at 11.
Poor elix got hit in the left eye from a water balloon thrown by cy.
It kinda swollen up and reddish.
But after py patiently apply ice on her eyes she got better.
We made cy apologised to her and he had a pretty hard time.
When I was at shan house..we were reminising at our naive sec 2 thoughts.
We had thought that sec3 would be so much more exciting.
We imagined being in the same class.With great teachers and all those exciting upper sec events.
We thought wrong.
What we have now are sucky bitches in our class.Sucky subjects to study like amath and dnt.ESP amath.
My whole class HATES amath.Well...except for mr ong yong ming.But he is not normal like the rest of us.
We hate it so bad whenever it was time for amath..we would purposely walk s l o w l y and try to drag as much as possible.
Argh.
No wonder I scored a 30/100 for my amath ca.
Terrible huh.
I know.

Ok.
A quikie update on my life.
Celebrated Cheryl birthday party yesterday at her house.
Quite a few events happen that I shan't really go elaborate on today.
Went home at around 11 plus.
Went to Kangqi house today.
Had to leave early cause I had to go fetch my mom from the airport.
I forgot to visit my locker on friday.
Argh.Dumb me.
I have to rush my work tomorrow morning.
I hate rushing.
I also hate copying.
But what to do.
I am stupid and lazy mahs.
hahas.
gtg.
toOdles.

Feel like I am drowning in my own pool of fears.And I am sinking lower and lower everytime I think about it.I am trying to break through the surface.Trying to feel the sun rays on my face.Trying to see the bright side of this particular situation.But I can't.
Can I like drop math?My life would be sooooooooooo much easier.Or maybe I should just kill myself...or maybe I should try to get myself sick now..or maybe I should commit a murder and spend my rest of my life in jail.Hm..that sounds like a probable excuse for me to skip math test tomorrow!!
gtg.
to0dles.