things i find beautiful in e morning.
the first pinkish glow of the sun in the morning-the promise of a better day.
the natural way the groups find their place in the courtyard.
when mrs ruth tan raises her hand. (LOL)
the 1 single moment of silence when the pa crew mess up and don't play the anthem on time.
unaware smiles on people's faces.
the nodding off of tired heads.
sitting underneath the sky.
patterns of clouds that look like stairways to heaven.
things i find beautiful at night.
solitude.
stars dotting the dark sky like diamonds.
the way the lights of the streetlights fall on the concrete road.
the dancing of the leaves.
the wind that rushes through my window grill and play around my hair ,chasing away the humility.
the sound of the occasional vehicle passing by.
the shadows on my wall thats constantly changing.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Singapore desert. (im e lone creature at the corner)
Just got back from church service and am contemplating whether or not I should study...something?
LOL.
i get tired from thinking whether or not I should study.
imagine what if I really did.
GASP.
GASP
GASP
this has been an entry with no agenda at all.
byes.
Friday, September 22, 2006
Science affects me very strongly and my reaction towards it is near explosion.
WHY?
Cause it either makes me feel highly frustrated to the point of wanting to pull all my hair out or it can lure me to sleep in a matter of mere seconds.
If you don't believe me, just ask kahyuen-my partner in science (and well actually almost everything) and who have mastered the skills of slapping me awake.
Cold hard bare facts and figures just cannot capture my attention.
Everytime widayah or ng teaches us something 'new', my immediate response would to be 'like the heck i care'.
Not sure when did this mental barrier to science pop up.
I used to be able to grasp hold of it well enough to score a decent B, but now it would asking too much.
Sighs.
Recieved my science results today and it was not good AT ALL.
Not looking forward to getting back my humans as well- have completely lost sense of hope in it after my dismal performance during prelims.
I am just hoping my L1R5 don't go over 30.
LMAO.
To think I always thought getting a under 20 mark for Os would be easy peasy.
Today had really been busy.
Really really.
Not sure why either seeing that fridays are supposed to be laid back but in actual fact, nothing in this world is laid back now.
Was so busy that I only had time to eat during recess.
ME. eating ONE meal.
I was that busy.Cause you know eating is my life and all that I look forward to.
LOL.
attended math consultation today.only ME and KY was present and needles to say mrs tan was disappointed.
I didn't mind though.
hahas.
it became 1 teacher/ 2 people.
(sorry,too much geog stuff)
After that, I had to rush home and take my 2nd shower of the day.
HUMIDITY can EAT MY FEET
grr..no wonder singapore lack of water.
Helped out at tribe encounter camp just now.
Worked at the register and it was like 1 woman to 5 men.
WOMEN LAGGING LAAA.aiyoyoyos.
Never knew the GB headquaters had a field.
SIGH.
Imagine, having a PRIVATE piece of open air field all to yourself.
YOU COULD PLAY SOCCER 24/7!!! with your friends of course.
SIGHSSSSS.
Sadly no one broguht a ball, so we used drink cans instead.
drink cans and flip flops don't mix well at all.
hahas.
well.
im off~
to study SCIENCE and promptly fall asleep.
hehehe.
WHY?
Cause it either makes me feel highly frustrated to the point of wanting to pull all my hair out or it can lure me to sleep in a matter of mere seconds.
If you don't believe me, just ask kahyuen-my partner in science (and well actually almost everything) and who have mastered the skills of slapping me awake.
Cold hard bare facts and figures just cannot capture my attention.
Everytime widayah or ng teaches us something 'new', my immediate response would to be 'like the heck i care'.
Not sure when did this mental barrier to science pop up.
I used to be able to grasp hold of it well enough to score a decent B, but now it would asking too much.
Sighs.
Recieved my science results today and it was not good AT ALL.
Not looking forward to getting back my humans as well- have completely lost sense of hope in it after my dismal performance during prelims.
I am just hoping my L1R5 don't go over 30.
LMAO.
To think I always thought getting a under 20 mark for Os would be easy peasy.
Today had really been busy.
Really really.
Not sure why either seeing that fridays are supposed to be laid back but in actual fact, nothing in this world is laid back now.
Was so busy that I only had time to eat during recess.
ME. eating ONE meal.
I was that busy.Cause you know eating is my life and all that I look forward to.
LOL.
attended math consultation today.only ME and KY was present and needles to say mrs tan was disappointed.
I didn't mind though.
hahas.
it became 1 teacher/ 2 people.
(sorry,too much geog stuff)
After that, I had to rush home and take my 2nd shower of the day.
HUMIDITY can EAT MY FEET
grr..no wonder singapore lack of water.
Helped out at tribe encounter camp just now.
Worked at the register and it was like 1 woman to 5 men.
WOMEN LAGGING LAAA.aiyoyoyos.
Never knew the GB headquaters had a field.
SIGH.
Imagine, having a PRIVATE piece of open air field all to yourself.
YOU COULD PLAY SOCCER 24/7!!! with your friends of course.
SIGHSSSSS.
Sadly no one broguht a ball, so we used drink cans instead.
drink cans and flip flops don't mix well at all.
hahas.
well.
im off~
to study SCIENCE and promptly fall asleep.
hehehe.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006
Just finished reading an article about self-abuse and my sarcastic side gets the better of me-as always.
I really don't think self-abuse is the main issue here.I mean, even if you did stop putting yourself down and hating who you are there will always be others who will do it for you.
PEOPLE HURT PEOPLE.
Recently I have recieving several indirect 'attacks' just because my english happens to have done better.
Even my sister in christ have put me down and I really don't care that I am typing it here.
I have to be the one who takes the insults even though I have got nothing to do with it.
sighs.
Whatever.
I really don't see what's the huge deal about doing superbly well for your prelims.
Its going to matter for 3 freaking months of your life.
The results from your Os is going to completely erase any trace of it.
Forgoodness sake, lighten up.
And rankings don't make who you are, or what people think of you.
Seriously,the society is obsessed with always trying to get to the top.
I admit having been one of them, but now that I am supposedly like on the top or something like that, I realise it isn't what it seems.
I am still disappointed with my results and school's ranking is nothing compared to national ranking.
sighs.
anyways school has been pretty .... lately.
trying to not let my tiredness get the best of me.
byes.
I really don't think self-abuse is the main issue here.I mean, even if you did stop putting yourself down and hating who you are there will always be others who will do it for you.
PEOPLE HURT PEOPLE.
Recently I have recieving several indirect 'attacks' just because my english happens to have done better.
Even my sister in christ have put me down and I really don't care that I am typing it here.
I have to be the one who takes the insults even though I have got nothing to do with it.
sighs.
Whatever.
I really don't see what's the huge deal about doing superbly well for your prelims.
Its going to matter for 3 freaking months of your life.
The results from your Os is going to completely erase any trace of it.
Forgoodness sake, lighten up.
And rankings don't make who you are, or what people think of you.
Seriously,the society is obsessed with always trying to get to the top.
I admit having been one of them, but now that I am supposedly like on the top or something like that, I realise it isn't what it seems.
I am still disappointed with my results and school's ranking is nothing compared to national ranking.
sighs.
anyways school has been pretty .... lately.
trying to not let my tiredness get the best of me.
byes.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
fallen from grace.
don't bother..
i'll be fine.
GOOD LIGHTING -the best concealer. (lOls)
WHY ME AND WENYEN ARE SO NOT SUITED TO BE MODELS.
(note our PAINED expressions.hahas..we are such naturals.)
Prelims are marvelously over and I gloriously took flight after hastily handing in my dnt paper without a single glance back.
I LOVE DRAMATIC EXITS. =)
Anyways (sorry me being completely crappy once more) despite of the weather and financial restrains, me wenyen and cheryl went on a shopping marathon at orchard.
We covered almost every mall there was (cept for paragon for apparent reasons) and by 11pm our feet were aching with satisfied agony.
Tried on several dresses and either the price didn't fit or the dress was too casual.
Typically,I bought everything else but a dress.
Recieved back 2 of my papers today and already teachers have started their rants.
Mrs Ruth Tan said yesterday CVSS was a rising sun and I sarcastically commented to mella saying we were the blackhole in the sun and today's result kinda proved that.
I guess I could understand where the frustration from the teachers came from.
Looking at my performance for my phy and chem paper I wonder if I had been in the classroom anytime during the 2 years at all.
Like Mdm Aliah said, we don't seem to comprehend the galactic importantness of the Os,instead we just kicking back and smoking on our cuban cigars.
That's a much grander image than the Os thats for sure.
But I really have to thank God for helping me with my english and dnt.
Without Him,I will be a crumpled heap on the ground,spilling my tears out.
Lets hope for better results.
=)
don't bother..
i'll be fine.
GOOD LIGHTING -the best concealer. (lOls)
WHY ME AND WENYEN ARE SO NOT SUITED TO BE MODELS.
(note our PAINED expressions.hahas..we are such naturals.)
Prelims are marvelously over and I gloriously took flight after hastily handing in my dnt paper without a single glance back.
I LOVE DRAMATIC EXITS. =)
Anyways (sorry me being completely crappy once more) despite of the weather and financial restrains, me wenyen and cheryl went on a shopping marathon at orchard.
We covered almost every mall there was (cept for paragon for apparent reasons) and by 11pm our feet were aching with satisfied agony.
Tried on several dresses and either the price didn't fit or the dress was too casual.
Typically,I bought everything else but a dress.
Recieved back 2 of my papers today and already teachers have started their rants.
Mrs Ruth Tan said yesterday CVSS was a rising sun and I sarcastically commented to mella saying we were the blackhole in the sun and today's result kinda proved that.
I guess I could understand where the frustration from the teachers came from.
Looking at my performance for my phy and chem paper I wonder if I had been in the classroom anytime during the 2 years at all.
Like Mdm Aliah said, we don't seem to comprehend the galactic importantness of the Os,instead we just kicking back and smoking on our cuban cigars.
That's a much grander image than the Os thats for sure.
But I really have to thank God for helping me with my english and dnt.
Without Him,I will be a crumpled heap on the ground,spilling my tears out.
Lets hope for better results.
=)
Friday, September 08, 2006
study my arse
So.
We went to study at joey's house for the 2nd time yesterday.
THE GREAT PRETENDERS.
THE GREAT TEMPTATION -my LAPTOP,not zhonghua.
hahas.
Our production rate decreased as time passed.
And we started doing silly nonsensical things such as posing like models on drugs.
Even our majestic tower of inspiration could not save us.
OUR INSPIRATION-clothed in the finest cloths(Actually its toilet paper,and don't ask why its there)
However,I HELD ON STRONG TO MY WILL.I STUDIED WHILE THE REST SLACKED.
please ignore the ikea magazine. it has completely NOTHING to do with me.*laughs nervously*
I was really really studying!!!!I was studying sooo hard zhonghua could not stand me no longer and attempted to wallop me.
So.
What can we conclude from this?
Having a tower of inspiration is of no use.
*GRINS*
We went to study at joey's house for the 2nd time yesterday.
THE GREAT PRETENDERS.
THE GREAT TEMPTATION -my LAPTOP,not zhonghua.
hahas.
Our production rate decreased as time passed.
And we started doing silly nonsensical things such as posing like models on drugs.
Even our majestic tower of inspiration could not save us.
OUR INSPIRATION-clothed in the finest cloths(Actually its toilet paper,and don't ask why its there)
However,I HELD ON STRONG TO MY WILL.I STUDIED WHILE THE REST SLACKED.
please ignore the ikea magazine. it has completely NOTHING to do with me.*laughs nervously*
I was really really studying!!!!I was studying sooo hard zhonghua could not stand me no longer and attempted to wallop me.
So.
What can we conclude from this?
Having a tower of inspiration is of no use.
*GRINS*
Monday, September 04, 2006
tech geek
death cab for cutie ROCKS.
I actually visited the comex show on sunday.
the greatest tech geek gallery.
No thanks to my brother.
It was suffocatingly impressive.
With the amount of people in there,it was almost impossible to take a look at all the gadgets.
Went in there with completely no agenda whatsoever and came out with a order for an mp3 player from creative.
Feel a tinge of regret and guilt.
I KNOW its not a need nor will I die without an mp3 player,in fact I can very well survive without it.BUT I still purchased it.
I really don't like myself.
Anyways, this week has been so far pretty unproductive.
prelims is still a distant time away in my mind.
EAT MY TOES PRELIMS.
grrrr.
Well.
off to study.
*SNORTS*
I actually visited the comex show on sunday.
the greatest tech geek gallery.
No thanks to my brother.
It was suffocatingly impressive.
With the amount of people in there,it was almost impossible to take a look at all the gadgets.
Went in there with completely no agenda whatsoever and came out with a order for an mp3 player from creative.
Feel a tinge of regret and guilt.
I KNOW its not a need nor will I die without an mp3 player,in fact I can very well survive without it.BUT I still purchased it.
I really don't like myself.
Anyways, this week has been so far pretty unproductive.
prelims is still a distant time away in my mind.
EAT MY TOES PRELIMS.
grrrr.
Well.
off to study.
*SNORTS*
Friday, September 01, 2006
help?
Its typical the way I let myself down.
I did it once more today.
Why do I never heed the right piece of advice?
Instead,choosing to go the other way with a sense of sudden defiance and urge I have lost hold of.
Got into something accidentally today.
Had no plans whatsoever to do so but God seem to have pushed me into that direction.
(I really should start being more direct huh, cause its also affecting my essay writing.
too much mystery shrouding my words. LOL.whatever.)
Anyways, does anyone have a 'dummies for prom planning'?
Or does anyone has a secret fetish for creating BEEYOOTIFUL events?
Cause I think we could do with some help regarding our prom this year.
The school is choosing to neglect us once more, while showering more attention and FUNDS for MORE overseas trips for the SEC 3S.
The unequality of it all.
They seem to be discouraging us in an indirect manner.
WE SHALL NOT GIVE IN TO THEM.
Neverrrrrrrr.
-.-"
actually I have no idea what I am caring so much for a night where nothing happens.
this is why I dislike myself at times.
Watched 'the devil wears prada' yesterday with rachel and charmaine.
It was in a sense a little different.
See how this whole other world is like.
Vicious,cold,beautiful and thin.
Love how meryl streep portrayed her character and the fashions rocked.
IM OFF.
to bite myself.
toodles.
I did it once more today.
Why do I never heed the right piece of advice?
Instead,choosing to go the other way with a sense of sudden defiance and urge I have lost hold of.
Got into something accidentally today.
Had no plans whatsoever to do so but God seem to have pushed me into that direction.
(I really should start being more direct huh, cause its also affecting my essay writing.
too much mystery shrouding my words. LOL.whatever.)
Anyways, does anyone have a 'dummies for prom planning'?
Or does anyone has a secret fetish for creating BEEYOOTIFUL events?
Cause I think we could do with some help regarding our prom this year.
The school is choosing to neglect us once more, while showering more attention and FUNDS for MORE overseas trips for the SEC 3S.
The unequality of it all.
They seem to be discouraging us in an indirect manner.
WE SHALL NOT GIVE IN TO THEM.
Neverrrrrrrr.
-.-"
actually I have no idea what I am caring so much for a night where nothing happens.
this is why I dislike myself at times.
Watched 'the devil wears prada' yesterday with rachel and charmaine.
It was in a sense a little different.
See how this whole other world is like.
Vicious,cold,beautiful and thin.
Love how meryl streep portrayed her character and the fashions rocked.
IM OFF.
to bite myself.
toodles.
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