I keep telling myself not to crash, not to crash cause everything's building up to such a state now that decisions made are entwined with the ones that comes after it. I cannot crash.

No one is ever truly free aren't they? We tie ourselves down to things we think matter and do things we thought we need to or want to do when there are empty fields waiting to be filled, skies to be reached. Instead we lumber about on mercilessly hot cement grounds, adding weight upon ourselves each day till we are no longer aware of the weight we place on ourselves.

Liting and I had fun with irregularity today.

We,

1) Placed soccer bets at Singapore Pools

2) Caught the soccer match between Woodland's rams and Bangkok's rabbits.

3) Got asked to take a picture with very cute Thai guys who proclaimed 'beautiful beautiful' after the picture was taken, thus improving international relations and wondered why Sg guys weren't as amusing.

4) Mis-used a DSLR by someone I've 'heard a lot about' ha ha ha.

Face Down On The Porcelain

It's befuddling how I can be perfectly okay in the day and then not be okay in the night. Someone tell me the difference? I cannot catch-up nor run away fast enough.

Jenson drove us in my dad's car to supper yesterday. I've been talking so much the past week I think I've reached my word limit.

MY PARTY PEOPLE

Shall miss their silliness and how they are always insulting my clothes.

Between dealing with 2 straight days of work and some inner breakdown, I could really do with a good karoke session right now.

After the 3rd day of School

After Queensway with Liting, I met up with Joey&Roger for dinnerrrrr.

Old friends and new things lost. We talked of everything we haven't talked about in a long while. Some parts funny, some parts sad, most parts memories.

Lost my necklace today. I wish I could stop losing things. Or have things lost to me.

After the 2nd Day of School

We freezed ourselves at National Geographic cause we are more impromptu than your mother's shoes.

Kevin said the way my hair was blowing around made me look like another species. Funny thing was, (I was the only one in shorts), while the rest of my body temperature dipped, my bare legs remain relatively warm. I was like 'Well my legs are always hot' when I found this out from the others.

On the first day of school, I was the only person late for class.

On the second day, I was the first person to arrive.

figures.

Today I woke up feeling like rebelling against the whole damn world. The whole world. Even if you're a cute kid in pink or a pastor preaching. Easier that than feeling sad and beaten..

I shall miss Wenyan when school starts seeing how we've not been apart for more than 2 days during the holidays.

CVSS YOG event

At 7am with 4hours of sleep.

Haven't seen this sight for so long.

One of my kids. CUTE RITEEEE.Shots I didn't really know was taken. Pratically sat at that spot for half an hour, talking and bullying anyone who'd approach me. You can plainly tell I was enjoying that.

Ryan, the guy eating pie (my assistant mentor) and I are such strong advocates for hardwork and dedication. LOL

YOG was fun for me.

Whilst the rest of the mentors slacked around, got free coupons and balloons and took pictures, I actually stayed at my kids' booth behaving like a typical ass and not at all mentorly like wacking some of them randomly with my cane and giving my usual crappy advice. How they put up with me I don't know.

Eunice's Wedding!

With Eunice and Sebastian.

I found their cut out duplicates so funny.

Because we are all in love with ourselves.

Just because this failed. LOL

With Eunice's girls which makes for quite a lot of girls.

To sum up their wedding;

Ps Eugene: And Sebastian, after 12 years, you may kiss your bride.

But there were honestly lots of funny moments.

AHHHHHAHHHHHHHHH soooo hot todayyyyyyyyy and I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tireddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd.

I heard a woman asking her friend 'why the ice-water in this restaurant was so diluted' while working today.

Classic.

I got carried away.

At work today, never have I seen a bunch of people dug in with so much relish over leftovers. Of course I had to join in such wonderful work cultures.

Sarah and I finished Damien's foie gras burger in a minute flat. We felt really bad for him thereafter but that was quite positively the highest point of the night.

Kianying's 18th celebration today. Talked a lot and ate a bit less than usual cause I felt nauseous the entire day after having Mac for lunch. I'm starting to think the stuff that Mac produces food for another species that isn't suitable for human consumption. Saw Zhonghua at PS and it was nice to laugh at/with him again.

Thinking so much got me here. And there's nothing here. You know there's something wrong when all the sad songs start to make sense.

Serangoon gardens has become our supper spot after 10pm cause it's far enough to feel exotic and near enough to get home by cab after 12am.

Got free rojak today after the uncle forgot my order! Pays to be forgettable? I can even make a good thing sound sad. sheesh.

Her jump was damn nice, too bad I didn't snap that.

Hehehehehahahaz.

The other day, I was amused by how my pee sounded. Not sure if that's deprevation or part of my affable and quirky sense of humor.
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Secondary school catch up last night was a chance to... catch up.
Something to sum up the dinner meet up:
Ky: Py, your romeo (py's dog) still alive?
LOL

They plan to invade and destroy my house for next meet up, just like ol' times. Great.
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WHERE MY PARTY PEOPLE AT?!
(just felt like saying that hoheh)

"When young we think there will come one person who will savor and sustain us always; when we are older we know this is the dream of a child, that all hearts finally are bruised and scarred, scored and torn, repaired by time and will, patched by force of character, yet fragile and rickety forevermore, no matter how ferocious the defense and how many bricks you bring to the wall. You can brick up your heart as stout and tight and hard and cold and impregnable as you possible can and down it comes in an instant, felled by a woman's second glance, a child's apple breath, the shatter of glass in the road, the words, 'I have something to tell you,' a cat with a broken spine dragging itself into the forest to die, the brush of your mother's papery ancient hand in the thicket of your hair, the memory of your father's voice early in the morning echoing from the kitchen where he is making pancakes for his children."

-brian doyle

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I'm not sure what I'm awake for. I think it's just so I can delay and shorten the amount of hours I have to be awake for the next day. But it all balances out in the end doesn't it? Silly me.

Uniqlo with old cell, pool with old dawgs and dinner catch up with old clique was fun today. ha ha. I think I'm literally hard to get. Like how I tried being funny but the funny isn't that obvious?

Picture of the Month

Cause it made me laugh and he is very wantable.

Good Friday / Behold, I am wearing white!

Wy just spammed the shot when we weren't ready. (she was quite determined to take a few pics cause a facebook quiz said she's suited to be a photographer...)

Then the camera kinda died on us. Like how Jesus died for us on the cross but of course, Jesus went through much more pain and agony. Okay, real sad attempt to bring in biblical reference. LOL

Went to Orchard after the event and I prevailed not buying anything in 3 stores before I caved in to my WOLF TANK which no one liked. LOL WHAT"S NEW.

Bro came along cause he wanted to 'see girls' since Orchard has a 'dense population' of girls. He regretted following after we spent half an hour in the first store but he hung in there for the rest of the ride and for dinner cause he was broke and had to be fed by me.

Have. not. been. sleeping. well.
not even when I drug myself with cough syrup.

The right book hasn't come by for quite a while now.

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"Maria and Jose"

Maria's first husband broke her heart, the second broke her teeth, and the third broke her new car.

Jose's first wife stole his heart, and the second all the money in his bank account.

When Maria met Jose, everything she had was in pieces.

When Jose met Maria, he had nothing.

When Jose came to Maria and asked, Maria offered him a place to sleep. For one night.

A month later they were sleeping in the same bed.

They didn't boss each other around.

They didn't talk about the future.

They never mentioned love.

Jose started working as a car mechanic.
He would arrive at Maria's house with his hands covered in oil. She would wash them very carefully with a special soap. She didn't want him to stain the sheets.

Once they brought a car to the garage that had been totally wrecked in a crash.

"If you can fix it it's yours," said Jose's boss.

And he worked for an extra hour every day until he fixed it. Maria didn't ask him any questions.

Jose didn't say anything, even if every night when he returned the dinner on the table was cold.

"Look Maria," screamed Jose as he started the car. Maria was frightened. She had never seen Jose happy.

"I'll take you to the sea if you want" he shouted from the street.And Maria answered yes.

On the way to the sea, Maria thought that living with a man who won't break your things comes close to happiness.
When they reached the coastline, Jose began to think that finding a woman who won't steal your things is enough to make you happy.

Without leaving the car, without saying a word, they kissed.

one of my fav. short stories.

love is a choice?

They had hair and make-up artists come in to ruin us and this was after make-up was done.

On self-imposed break.
During closing

Unimportant self-revelation at 5am- I'm an overbearing asshole when inebriated. Work was crazy today (restaurant's official opening with 900 guests) and there are pictures to prove it. Work makes me feel like some other person like its a whole different ball game like a jackass. I need to revert back to normal.

First day of work at 7ate9 today. I walked home at 12am, on the way meeting a lizard, 3 cockroaches and a bat. Companions that kept me on my toes. I kept dreaming of cheery scenarios where I was either stalked or dragged into the bush to be slaughtered.

I wish I had something more interesting to say but work has wiped all of that out. Oh, cept for that fact that I hate using lighters. They always end up burning my thumb.

BBQ

Wenyan yelled POSE, and so I did.

Didn't think it would turn out so tak glam though. LOL

Wenyan; We finally got a proper jumpshot!

We thought it meant we were all captured jumping at the same level.

Then we saw its do re mi and couldn't help but laugh at Joey.

Today

I was doused in urine whilst in the pool today and Tis the Stuff of Childhood. I won't say who but we are beyond friends now. This officially bonds us to a degree very few people dare to go.

Been watching TopGear and haha, this #1 and this #2 and this #3 cracked me up. The trips they made across botswana and vietnam are must watch. They have the best jobs in the world!