60 years of lurveee baby.

I slept at 6am yesterday and had to wake at 10am today.
I was suppose to meet wy at the pool at 11am but ehh..well..somehow I only manage to get there at 1220.ehehes.
We did laps,chatted by the poolside while tanning,played the playground at the children's pool,chatted and tanned somemore.
We almost had the entire pool to ourselves.NICE.
After that,we walked to hougang mall and did a little shopping.I also witnessed wy going to the bank to withdraw her money without her parents for the first time.OH..wy is all grown up now.hahas.
Bought lunch back for lazy arsey brother and was watching some crappy movie on starmovies when suddenly my mom came home, immediately announcing that I have to get my arse off the couch and take a shower because we had to go to the club to celebrate my grandparents 60th anniversary.(this aren't her exact words but its around the same message la.)
Everyone was at the restuarant,kinda formal too.I felt kind of underdressed in my black t-shirt and white polka dotted black bubble skirt.Such a long unnecessary description eh?Anyways,food was very chinese and seafood-y so it was horrible.I survived mostly on the fish,beef and deer meat while my canadian cousins survived on broccoli and rice and ar..peanuts.lols.Once again,Justin ate like a glutton.So far,he has eaten 3 roast beef sandwiches in a row/2 fish and chips in a row and today he had 4 bowls of rice.Dang.After dinner,we went to the club karoke room.I thought we were just gona like sing a couple of bad songs in a dark room and after half and hour everyone stumble home wincing after hearing bad music for half an hour.But nooo,my uncles and aunties kinda went further then that,much further(in a better way).
Uncle yong was the 'emcee' .3 speeches were made on my grandparents and their great love for each other and their family.After that,a performance was put up by uncle peng,aunty rena and diane and darren and dom played the guitars to the song 'yue liang tai piao wo de xin'.We demanded for an encore and we sang along with them.Then grandmama n grandpapa was presented with 2 bouquets of roses by my daddy.Each and everyone of us gave them a hug and after that Uncle yong told us their love story.They only knew each other for 33 days and after that they got hitched!!Wah..and their love has survived for 60 whole scary years.Soon it was time for the cake!We took plenty of group pictures and the cake was NICEEEA!Then we took individual family pictures with grandmama n papa.Mingled and at around 1am we left the place.
A great night indeed. ----family photo of my grandmama n grandpapa.my dad is the short lil one in front with the doll.(we had a great time teasing him abt that.hahahs)
well ..just 3 more miserable days till even much more miserable 2006.
to0dles.
godbless.

shopping trip.

After rotting consecutively for 2 days I finally went out on a shopping trip today with wenyan and yanshan.
We went to orchard cause we wanted to do serious shopping and serious damage to our wallets.
hahas.
Wenyan quest that day was to get a roxy pencil case while me and yanshan was just there for the ride.
I think we went to all the roxy stores in orchard.In the end wy never did find THAT pencil case,instead she bought a roxy bag and a shirt.How typical.I ended up spending some of my xmas money on a shirt and a pair of studs.Boohoo.Lol.
Actually I like spending money on shopping trips.Otherwise I would feel that it has been a day wasted.
We went to wisma then pacific plaza THEN far east plaza THEN paragon THEN wisma AGAIN THEN to plaza singapura.
WHEWWW.
You guys should really really try the fried mars bars and cheesy sausage with mash potatoes in far east plaza.
Completely delicious and fattening.But still delicious all the same.
The three of us shared a bowl of fried mars bars,cause we felt the fats in a bowl of that was too much for 1 person.hahas.
Deciding that the bowl of fried mars bars weren't enough,me and shan ended up buying the cheesy sausage.It seems like everytime I'm out with shan I always eat alot.
Luckily the weather was good too.Not to hot nor humid,pretty cool.
Otherwise I would not have walked to wisma to paragon then back to wisma again.hahas.
Because wisma did not have the pencil case wy wanted and because we did not want to walk back to paragon we ended up going to ps.
At ps,we immediately headed to the roxy shop and well,wy just ain't fated to buy a pencil case today.
After that we headed home,I reached home around 7 where I was given a slight scare from my mom.
I was opening the door of the master bedroom when I came face to face with 2 empty black orbs beneath a white mask.
It was my mom with her facial mask still on. *pengs,I know*
Well,I guess this is my last official day for shopping.Must definately savour the next few precious days till the start of the year.
to0dles
godbless.

flippin bored.

Does anyone know what boxing day is for??
I asked that in a random chatroom just now and some said it was just a day after a special day.
Wow, what a purpose boxing day has.

Anyways,the xmas weekend is over.
Went to a few parties, recieved a few presents and went through a whole turmoil of emotions.

I also watched 'the chronicals of narnia' last thursday with wenyan,yixian,my bro and 3 other ri boys.
A good show.Some scenes in it really reminded me of LOTR.
Went to tm with wenyan and bro.Met up with jonathan they all and queued a very long queue for the tics.After that we had lunch where J worked because then we would have discount -.- .
It was okay I guess.It got more entertaining when we played 'zhong qi mi ma' to finish up the mango salad that has chilli,mango sago and lemon tea in it.hahas.
Not a very delicious combination thats for sure.We played around 6 rounds of it.My brother was the worst.He struck 4 times.We also tricked J once.He went to the toilet and wy asked whether we wanted to trick him.All of us immediately put our heads together and struck a plan.We had a hard time muffling our grins when he returned.We were so obvious!But in the end J still swallowed the concoction.Eww.We had add in more ingredients in it and it was after only he swallowed did we tell him our plan.hahas.Then it was time for the movie.We saw veron too..what a coincidence!

On the 23rd,us l.i.t.e.s gathered at sharlyn's house for a party cum bbq!
Us guest watched 'charlie and the choco factory' while they prepared the food for the bbq.But because the bbq pit was damn small, Ann fried everything instead.hahas.Had some steam egg,fried chicken wings,hotdogs and fried beehoon.Pretty good dinner cause there were alot of silly jokes flying around.Melinda and gang even acted a small skit according to the world's lamest riddle.The green ping pong ball 'joke'.

Crowding at a corner of the house. SMILES.

After that we took a couple of pictures and then joey said she had to go home.So the rest of us also went off.At the bus stop we acted like a bunch of drunks.Kept laughing ourselves silly.It was as if we suddenly all got high or something.Yixian as usual was trying to annoy us with her singing and doing a good job of it.Wenyan said later her singing made the lights go off ar.THEN, a light really went off in the house opp. us. hahahas.Had us half scared and half shock for a moment.Yixian could not stop laughing.I think our 'highness' wore off around the time we reached cp.We were so 'high' we even climbed the stairs instead of taking the escalator!Lol. Said our goodbyes and me.wy.stef and junsheng went to starbucks.Junsheng paid for our drinks and we went our seperate ways.

Went to watch the magic of love during the afternoon of xmas eve.Pretty good show but we were soo far away from the stage.After the show my dad fetched me and my bro home and had a short detour to compass where I did very last minute shopping.My dad and bro waited in the car while I rushed about cp buying wrapping paper,gifts and chocolates.There was a queue everywhere I went.Grrr.When I finally got into the car my dad was like 'You took an hour!' Actually it was only half an hour lor.Not bad le la.hahas.
Spent xmas eve night with my cousins and their families once more.We went to another club of my dad's.Had a table near the sea and ate curry chicken and chocolate brownie with tiramisu on top!After dinner we went to darren's church and watched their choir performed.After 20 minutes we left because my mom was tired and she had to work.

Xmas day started with church service!Was there in the wee hours of the morning for bible study.We did our usual stuff and then exchanged our gifts.Then me.wy and yx went off to search the rest of our church friends to give them our pressies as well.All was merry.The ushers handed out balloons and when we went in the hall we saw many balloons and confetti laying about.I found out why later.hahas.It was a great service.My dad fetched me and my bro home.After spending a couple of hours at home it was off to Uncle thong's house for xmas dinner.Dinner consisted of turkey,chicken,mashed potatoes,fried rice,sausages and salad.For desert I had a piece of log cake and ice cream!Read my book,watched mtv and 'gambled' when we discovered uncle thong's gambling table.Really cool and old.Here are some lame pictures.LOL.
A normally not camera shy and grouchy dominic.must be because michelle disrupted his sleep.she took this pic by the way.lols.

Michelle telling the guys to wake up.hahas.Tried to tempt them with ice cream.

After a full dinner.Snooze time for my cousins. -.-"" caught my bro unaware as well.hehes.

well.thats all folks.

godbless.

intuition?

I came across this blog named 'museum of twits' just now.
Another example of people laughing at the expense of someone else.
And I realised something and that is,
on the many occasions we find ourselves laughing over something,
that something is usually a someone.
Its kind of sad really.

Christmas is nearing,holidays are almost over.
I have not seen my friends in ages.
And I know something is boiling over.

I have a feeling next year is going to hit me hard.
Both in studies and in friendships.
crap.crap.crap.
I just have this sinking feeling in my heart right now and I know very clearly why.
And its not because of the Os.

bye.
godbless.

bowling for conversation.

I just had dinner with my cousins and their families in my dad's club.
Initially I did not want to go at all.
It was raining,I was already on my bed and I felt that it would just be another awkward dinner where conversation would be sparse.
It was actually like this.I ate my fish and chips in moody silence while my cousins played uno.
Had no mood to finish it and my brother the glutton kindly finished it up for me.
So I made a quick exit to the toilet where some freaky girls were sharing the same cubicle and they were giggling over something.I heard them get out and I decided to get out as well just to embarrass them.They RAN for it.
hahaha.
Till now I still don't want to know what they were up to.
I did not want to go back to the table so I went to the bowling alley where there were a few comfy couches there.
Chatted to wenyan on the phone about tomorrow and soon my cousins came.Dom rudely intruded into the conversation by mimicking me gayISHLY and snatching my hairband out of my hair.
Before I knew it,all my cousins were there to play bowling.
Ah,what the heck I'll play too.
It was surprisingly FUN.It was much easier for us to interact over a game of bowling.We teased,laughed,cheered,cajoled,tried to distract one another and striked.
Had around 2 games of bowling and by then the adults were there as well,giving us technically correct but unhelpful advice as we played worse with their advice.
'You gotta bend lower,bend your knee....'
I'm like,oh whatever.
So I just threw the damn ball not caring about bending my friggin knee.
And I striked.
Haha.
When I did bend,my ball went to the gutter.
Soon bets were on the way.
$10 on justin if he could spare (he did),$200 on michelle if she could knocked down 2 balls on the left and 1 ball on the right on her last turn (gutter),$30 on dominic if he could hit the ball at the front without hitting down the 2 balls behind(the ball curved right,entirely missing the balls) and $50 on deborah if she could spare as well (missed).
With money on the line,people seem to crack under pressure.
So,all in all not a very bad night.
godbless
to0dles.

youth leader training.

I WENT FOR YOUTH LEADER TRAINING TODAY!!
ehehehe.
It was good to see my friends from church again.
I woke up around 650am.
The earliest I've woken since this holiday started.
I reached hougang station around 8am and I quickly ran into the train along with the usual mad morning rush.
Because there were so many people it was bodily impossible for me to walk to the back of the train to find wenyan.
I kind of felt nauseated throughout the ride though.
PEOPLE,NEVER TAKE YOUR MEDICINE ON AN EMPTY STOMACH.
okay so this is like common sense but I was in such a rush this morning I just gulp down a cup of warm milk.
Got off at Outram Park and finally met wenyan face to face.
hahas.
So we took another train to Redhill and when we came out of the train we saw Weiren.
Wy quickly ushered me to take the lift because he was taking the escalator.
LOL.
Whatever.
But we we still banged into him downstairs anyways.
Bought a pao at 711 to fight the nausea off.
We waited for Jonathan(our so called guide) and after around 10 minutes he finally arrived.
We trekked to a...place. yah. right.
Come to think of it now I've no idea what that place is.
Training was pretty good.
We hung outside the corridors because Pastor has not arrived yet.
Roy and Shamilee was busy counting down till 9am as Pastor said if he didn't come and open the door by 9am we would have free breakfast!
9am came and went. Woots.Yay. yadayadayada.
He came,then we were told to stand in a circle and introduce ourselves.
Hi Im blah blah blah and Im from RI and going to RJC or Im from anderson going to NJ or Im from Ac.
So it was a pretty humbling experience la.
hahas.
After that we played DOUBLE WHACKO!
We had to partner up with someone else and whoever who sits infront is the one that gets hit while the person at the back has to yell out a name to save their partner.
Due to my medicine I was pretty drowsy-like.
So my reaction was pretty delayed but somehow we escaped unscathed.
Kianying kept beating her fist on my legs whenever someone shouted her name though.Kept me even more distracted because how can you possibly remember any name you just learnt along with 20 other something names while being simultaneously beaten??
After that we watched SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS movie.
hahas.super lame.actually I watched it before but it was still funny the 2nd time round.
We were told to sit in a circle in our different groups and the facilitators asked us 3 qns.
What was the most repeated line in the movie?
Name one characteristic of spongebob.
Which scene touched us the most?
I gave my answers quite alot of thought and you would be surprised at the amount of important lessons we can learn from a movie as silly as this.
I quoted a bible verse which says,"don't let anyone look down on you just because you are young" because this verse has almost the same meaning as what the movie was trying to tell us.
And I was right!
hahas.
It was the verse the facilitators wanted to preached about.
Several words were also used to described spongebob and some said he was lame,determined,goofy and I said he had a child like faith about him.
I got it right again!(actually there aren't any right ans but mine was most accurate la.See I understand Spongebob so well.Oh dang..watch too many spongebob shows le.)
After that,it was pastor Jo's turn to 'preach'.
1230 rolled by and we were let out for lunch!
Had fried kway teow and ate with my group.Kind of weird because everyone was so busy eating we were all very quiet.
Soon we started discussing about our game which we had prepared.I didn't take part in the planning actually cause I wasn't there on day1 so I just dreamt away.
Then we had worship and Pastor Jo spoke to us again.
If I go into the details I think your eyeballs would melt so I shall stop here.

PS: how do you take a dry ring out of a cup of coffee?



Ans:You put the ring in the coffee bean!!


Now that wasn't so hard right?
Actually I find it downright lame.
All thanks to Joel who told us that.

godbless y'all.

blahs.

Have been hit by another annoying wave of illness.
Ya know...the usual bouts of flu and cough.
So today was really basic.
I woke up at 10 went back to sleep till 1,read the snapper by roddy doyle till 4 and slept till 6++.
Kind of upset about having need to skip youth leadership training but then again I got to skip emath test as well! *grins*
My brother finally accepted God into his heart on Sunday.*thrilled*
Hopefully he won't backslide or something.
I can't wait to go for the training tommorow.So much to learn and I will get the chance to bond with people from my tribe.Hopefully my nose and throat won't be so destructive throughout the training.
Its only 2 more weeks to school reopen.sigh sigh sigh.
its like..HERE WE GO AGAIN.
godbless.
to0dles.

XMAS PARTY

(me,wy,rach and yy at the chalet)
Had the XMAS PARTY which us people at SMART kids had planned for 4 weeks.FINALLY.
I almost didn't go actually.I woke up and felt like absolute CRAP.Sometimes I really detests MORNINGS.The sun suddenly seemed to bright,my legs suddenly feel they can't move and the HUMIDITY.Can I say ARGH?
Due to my overwhelming self discipline,I managed to get out of bed 15 minutes later than I'm supposed to.*grins*After showering,I had to drag my lazy arse of a brother out of bed as well.I used a enormous torchlight and flicked the light around his face.Annoyed the hell out of him.*evil laughs*Good method to use on your siblings people.
But still we still could not catch Miss Lim taxi and had to once more take a cab on our own.Kinda dozed off in the cab.Reached the chapel at around 1005am I think.
I packed the goody bags,stuck blue tags on paper angels and then we had worshipping session before the kids arrive.Got slained twice,LOLS.
After that everything was a mad rush because we had to hand over the chapel to the hokkien service people at 330pm.The devil is really testing us,giving us obstacles and not wanting the party to suceed sia.Quite a lot of us weren't feeling well,we had problems with the venue,the time and worse of all invitations weren't returned!
During the ice breaker time,we had a game where the group had to wrap one person in newspaper with masking tape as creative as possible.I had fun on that one though in the end us youth leaders actually did more of the wrapping than the kids.WE WON! hahas.I kept laughing during the judging of the 'snowmans'.They all look so...FUNNY?hahas.My group's snowman nose fell off and the hat fell onto his face and hid it.hahas.But because when it was time for the snowmans to dance kenneth did a great job and nothing dropped.
But in the end things turn out kind of all right I guess.The 'twirling' girls didn't drop their baton once,a few giggles came out of the audience during the drama and my group (dance and singing people) gave it our all.
Then it was time for refreshments.I was only into the 3rd bite of my curry puff when we(youth leaders) had to sing for the kids.-.-
Sang around 4 songs,did silly movements,went to shake kids hands and greet them merry xmas and finally it was back to our refreshments NOT.We found out from pastor Jo we had to move out,so it was bye bye to my refreshment once more and I went to give out goody bags.Mernard and gang finally recieved their wristbands from wy,yx and me.We brought the kids down to the church lobby and there was a 'human chain' along the way.Like a celebrity walking down the red carpet.LOLs.The trays of refreshments also followed us down and we just grabbed whatever we wanted from there while waiting for the kids buses.I ate ALOT.Argh.Soon it was time for the kids to leave and we said our sad goodbyes for we won't be seeing them till next year.*sobs* Just when our relationships were growing stronger we won't be able to see each other.Oh well,life is like THAT.
to0dles.
godbless.
yay,church service tommorrow!
17 december.

BIBLE STUDY- 8 december

Miss Lim was absent and Wen yan was given charge.
12 of us gathered around the pool table.
Really comfy feeling.
Like this close circle of sisters and nothing can break it apart-well except for times when one of us had to go pee.
-snickers
Wenyan vigilantly followed her list of ‘things to do’ throughout the entire meeting.
We had a good laugh at that.
The band members gave out the cups they bought for us from Japan.
We cooed and awwed over them.
-laughs
I chose a cup which had a cute pink lil bunny on it.
Joey also bought something for us from Malacca.
I got a paperclip.
Silly wenyan tried clipping it onto her hair and her hair got stuck onto it.
-winces
Kahyuen who apparently who was as silly as wenyan tried that too.
Her hair got stuck too.
-rolls eyes
Wen yan then went through last week sermon and we sang a couple of pretty off key songs.
-laughs
We are so not made for singing.
It was then time for us to go into groups of 3 and each of us had to pray for either the BIG move, the BIG run or for those people in lijiang.
Then we went on to the ADMINISTRATIVE stuff.
-sounds so official eh
It seems like only a few of us are running.
-tsk tsk
Our cell group is so lazy.
We had a crazy time trying to organize for our upcoming chalet.
Resulting in a couple of raised voices, not because we were angry at one another or anything.
The whole atmosphere was so noisy we had to raise our voice to be heard.
-dots
Things settled down and we did the secret Santa!
First round was a failure because one of us didn’t have a slip of paper.
It was only after we decided to restart the whole thing when Joey discovered she had an extra slip of paper!
Everyone ended up going ‘JOEYYYY’.
-LAUGHS
Poor Joey.
After that everything was DONE.
We took a group picture outside Joey’s gym.
And headed off to our separate ways.

PRIDE n PREJUDICE was NICEEE.
I didn’t think it would be funny or anything but there was seriously some laugh out loud moments.
-laughs
Mr Darcy is so suave.
-swoons
Mrs Bennet is hilarious.
Alas,
It is just a movie in the end.
A creation from the imagination of a fellow woman.

childhood

on friday night-
or in actual fact early saturday morning,i suddenly got tiresome of my books and novels and decided to have a go at my childhood photo albums.
i sneaked into my maid's bedroom and heaved a couple of big sized albums back to my room while sneezing because of the dust.
I NEVER REALISED HOW GOOD OF A CHILDHOOD I HAD TILL THEN.
i wanted them back.
i wonder why some people say teenage years are the best days of our lives.
my favourite pose at 4 seemed to be doing a twist besides my forehead while grinning cheekily at the camera.
i have since advanced to twisting besides my cheek while smiling seductively at the camera-in turn leaving many camera lens broken.
i spent half the time marveling at how thin and slim i look then.
i actually had knobbly knees and deep collarbones!
i was that gawky.
okay,so i wasn't THAT thin but i was thin,
even up till err...11..?
then i started pondering why on earth had my family stopped taking pictures..
because of digital advancements..?
of my dad not being home ALOT of the time..?
of me being too fat and ugly..?
i asked my dad who was reading the papers and he said maybe it was because we haven't been overseas for a long time.
RIGHTT....
well..im off.
toodles

its me again.
and no..im not at the library.
hahas.
im at some toyota carshow thingy or whatever.
wassup with me and blogging at strange places anyways.
singaporean kiasu ness clearly shown here.
car prices go down everyone jiu chiiiooong arrr.
like my mom.
-.-
finals are coming.
have not started revision.
im so screwed.
as usual.
alas,i shall never learn.
can't help if my body system is against me.
everytime i set myself on starting revision..my mind go on auto snooze mode.
bleahss.
to0dles
godbless.

im in the library using the computer again.
somehow..whenever im surfing the net in the library it makes me feel like im doing something forbidden which ever web i go to.
the lack of privacy sucks too.
soo many people staring over my shoulders squinting at this screen to see the words im typing in tiny font.
im changing this words to bright yellow.
aha!now you guys really can't see what im writing.
nananana..
im so easily entertained, its pathetic.
hahas.
am waiting for miss wenyan to make an appearance.
should have continued watching mtv at home instead of making an effort to be on time.
dotS.
so mannnnyy many things have happened which i have not manage to update due to the lack of cooperation from my constantly virus attacked computer at home.
either the viruses love my computer too much or my computer simply hates me.
i can live with that.
afterall,i still have this oh so wonderful library computer with high speed pentinum and lotss of privacy.
was sitting on the bus after school one day when another episode of 'urban beats' came on tv mobile.
i thought to myself 'oh!i've watched this episode before'.
then it occured to me....
what the hell is happening to my life?..
watching bad tv reruns on the friggin bus?..story of my life.
lolss.
whatever.
so totally babbling here.
where is wenyann???..
to0dles`
godbless ya all.

been ages since ive updated.
my computer hasn't been cooperating with me.till now.
not sure why its suddenly ok again.
thank god.
today's racial harmony day.not sure why..but atmosphere wasn't as great as last year.
maybe its just me.
been doing some 'growing up' lately.
its sucks.
growing up sucks.
wish'd i was a kid again.
no sense of danger..no sense of responsibility ..pressure..no sense of anything.
life just seems so scheduled.so 'timetabled'.
its starting to get predictable.
*gasps*
tragic really.
today i spent 3 hours sawing,filing,cutting my workpiece in my costume.
still can feel the sawdust.
lols.
took lots of pic after school.
during assembly i took with my church gang too.
went to kovan and took more pics.
hahas.
happy pictures.
not exactly happy memories.
oh well.
thank god for today.
godbless.

has been 5 days since school reopened.
hadn't been all that bad.near tolerable actually.
been getting in touch with my inner child after school lately.
hahas.
has rekindled the magic in block catching.like real.
lols.
more like rekindled the muscles in my legs.actually i can't believe there are still muscles after a month of slackin` and snackin`.
but i definately feel them now.*winces*
been pretty confused about some people around me.
i don't get why people need to complicate stuff.
why can't everyone just love and accept everyone else?..
ok..so maybe not love or whatever.
but at least get along moderately.instead of spending so much time planning how to backstab someone.
some just don't see what's in front of them and how lucky they actually are.
hadn't done any real work yet.
had 'free period' during chem,dnt,chi,phy,cme.
but i know this won't last.
oh well.
what to do.
just gotta love and stick with what you have.
to0dles`
godbless.

went to compass point today and met up with shan and just.
saw a sign outside bk saying 'student meal!'.so we went in.
chatted and ate till 7 plus.
saw many many people from school.
hais.
approx. 7 more days or so till school reopen.
shall miss all those nights of staying up with my brother playing burn out 3 on his ps2.
totally clobbering him.LOL.
shall also miss waking up at 1 in the afternoon with nothing to worry about.
mella 's bdae coming up..hopefully can watch initial D together.
well..gtg..using library computer again.
my computer has gone bonkers on me AGAIN.
grrrr.
to0dles`
godbless.

went to watch mr and mrs smith with rachh.char.min.
it rocks.
twisted in a funny and 'sexual' way.
hahas.
convinced charmaine to have lunch at seoul garden.
actually we just dragged her there while she mocked pretend to strangle us.
ate lots and lots of meatty stuff and chocolate ice cream.
hahas.
was damn bloated after the meal.
spend around 3 hours there.
min and rach stead also joined us.
d0ts.hahas.never mind..got free 'atm'.
went to charmaine house after the meal.we actually planned to watch another movie
in her house but we ended up using her computers and playing poker cards.
rachh and min's faces lit up like small kids who had recieved a present when they were
given the permission to feed char's dog with bread.
hahas.
whatever~
to0dles`.
godbless.
21jun o5.

hadn't really really blog nowadays.
lazy to go into the specifics of anything.
if i were to really really blog,i would have blogged on 3k overnight bbk,3i class chalet,class chalet,kayaking and all the outings i have been.
but lazyyyyy.
maybe i should just start with yesterday.
went to kovan to bowl with justina,cheryl,cindy,vis,kc,roger,ang and ray.
met up at cp with justina and we just hung around there till 1pm.
walked around and talked at the lrt corridor while eating choco waffle.
kind of boring at the bowling alley.
spent time at the arcade first before bowling.played a few games of daytona and time crisis 2.
l0lx.time crisis so fun.hahas.
bowling was boring.just didnt feel like bowling.
actually started to play to pei cheryl but somehow just didnt felt like playing.
cindy took my place while i read.
went to the arcade again with justina.
we left around 2 plus for Mac and we ate and talked again.hahas.
much more fun at Mac than the alley.
the rest of them joined us later and we walked around heartland mall.
the guys did all the shopping while the girls waited for them to shop finish.
how weird..
shouldn't it be the other way round?
hahas.
justina and cheryl kept asking questions on christianity.hahas.
answer until want to vomit blood le cause they started asking the night before but still don't quite get it.
lucky roger also there..can help me ans them.
went home around 6 plus.
thats about it.
must pat me on the back.today i more hardworking than usual wors.
lols.
whatever.
to0dles`
godbless.
14 june

im back from camp.
it was over too soon.
now im back and ive to face all those stuff i have ignored for 3 wonderous days.
hahas.this is so crappy.
church tribe camp was great!!!~
i cried for the first time in church too~~
and i felt so light after that...it was pretty scary at first cause i started trembling really badly and i couldn't stop.luckily wenyan was close by.she prayed for me and the tears started to come out and then i couldn't stop crying.after i stopped crying i felt like a burden has been lifted off my shoulders and i finally got my qns answered.thank you God.
i also grew closer to my spiritual family during this period of time and i had so much fun during the games.lols.
will elaborate some other day.
been pretty lazy since of late.*grins sheepishly*.
to0dles
godbless`
12 june

im going to church tribe camp tomorrow.
im going to church tribe camp tomorrow.
im going to church tribe camp tomorrow.
3 whole beautiful days away from home.
i can forget the whole pile of holiday assignments sitting on my desk collecting dust for 3 whole days.
i can wipe away the fact that i've got amath remedial on tuesday for 3 marvelous days.
i can just concentrate on God.
b l i s s .

to0dles`
godbless.
9 june.

remind me not to always go out with shan.
when we two get together we are like these 2 fo0lish gluttons who eats non stop.
yesterday,each of us finished off 1 and half packets of long john's large fries each and a cup of bubble tea.
the day before yesterday i was actually just planning to have a pearly for my lunch but when we were in 711 she convinced me to buy a large pack of ruffles and we finished it up along the lrt corridors and to think i had just finished a fillet burger meal + cheese fries at kfc a couple of hours ago.
yikes.
diet totally going down the drain.if a diet even existed in the first place.
went to long john yesterday to give cheryl the money for the bbk.ended up hanging around with cheryl,elix,cindy,shan,vis,ang,roger and kc.went to ntuc to buy stuff for e bbk and went bk to cheryl house.after that we went back to rm and soon after shan n me left cause i had my bible study.
went home and completed my 500 pieces winnie the pooh and gang puzzle.
well...gtg
to0dles`
godbless
4june.
*off to run on the treadmill!!*

like who am i kidding??...hais

had a haircut today with shan.
my hair now?
s h o r t.
not those boyish kind of short.
but not long enough to tie up and it barely grazes my shoulders at the sides.
and to shan's relief,i finally have a pernament parting.[i hope]
am afraid i might not be able to tie it up.
lols.
*whateverr*
met her at school at 1145am.called ky down from band and we went to search for mr tan.
finally found him at the canteen having his lunch.
what timing.hais.
went to compass point with shan after that.
stepped into kfc and saw some 3j people having their lunch too.
me and regina used the time to catch up.lols.
after the cut me and shan went to popular and cold storage.
rach called and told her i would meet them later.
ended up watching alexander at her house.
no wonder its rated m18.lols.
well gtg.
to0dles`.
godbless.
2 june o5.

finally made it to cheryl house today.
hahas.
we literally pig out again.the guilt came later.
our aim?
finish 2 large pacs of ruffles.2 litres of choco chip ice cream.2 pacs of jellies.
all was left was half the tub of ice cream.
we talked,surfed the net and took some pictures and goofy videos using cheryl's camera.
found some new revelations too.*waggles eyebrows*
left the house around 5plus.
to eat.
again.hahas.
took 136 to chomp chomp.
i think the name itself will tell you how much we ate.
we could have ate more.but we didn't have enough funds or sponsors.lols.
had a plate of chai tow kuay,a plate of sambal stingray,some fried oysters and a 'tank' of sugarcane.
shared the stingray n sugarcane with shan.
walked to a pretty deserted bus stop.
me,shan and justina talked about ghosts and such.
how quaint.
took the bus to hougang mall.
looked for vis and px gift till 845pm.
went home.
and im here typing away.
gtg .
to0dles`.
godbless.
1juneo5

aish.
first thing on my schedule today was amath tuition.
it was from 9-11.
or so it says on the paper.
I was just praying that he won't drag it over 1115.
hah!
it gone unanswered.the session only ended around like 1145.
someone kill me please.
by the end of the tuition,all i could remember was about minimum point,line of symmetry,maximum or minimum value and a hell lot more.
er whats my name again?
okok,im being overly drama again.
old habit.*shrugs*
was planning to have another girl talk session with cheryl,just and shan but dissapointingly cheryl had to go out with her family.
SooOo,we rainchecked it to tomorrow.
whee...can't wait.
my mouth needs some other form of exercising aside from chewing.*grins sheepishly*
Nowadays the basic agenda on my schedule is S L A C K I N G.
Yesterday peiyun came over to my house to slack with me.hahas.
we met at Rm planning to rent 'the phantom of the opera'.But the salesperson told us we had to be 16.
how sad.the stupid age permit again.
so..we went to buy a vcd.we scanned for the cheapest on the rack and came up with....*drumroll please*......'Bring it on.Again'.hahas.
i know i know.why that??
i have absolutely no clue.but it wasn't all that bad.
i even watched it again with my brother today.yupp.im that bored.
g t g.
to0dles`.
godbless.
wheeeee.
31 may o5

Expeditions,havoc and confrontations

Due to some technical difficulties I've realised that I haven't really properly updated anything of importance.There was my school dragon boat expedition,causing havoc in 3j class chalet etc etc.
Dragon boating was FUN!Tiring but fun.The sun was beating down on us as usual,we were pratically the weakest link cause our boat only carried 11 girls(even our intructor was a woman) while other boats carried 20 people consisting of girls and boys.So it was very girl power.Our motto is :'Wo men shi you xiong bu de!!!'.hahas.how lame huh.Peeps from 3k then retaliated by saying our breasts were those saggy types.There was also ALOT of splashing involved.Got drenched so badly once that even my glasses were thrown off my face.By the end of the day,I was drenched thoroughly.Not a single part of my body was dry.hais.After the race,(we ended second last..hahas)we sat on the edges of different sides of the boat and went up and down like a see saw.At first we were pretty weary cause we were afraid of being overthrown but we got more daring after we realise it was almost impossible to going over the boat just by rocking.Very nice sensation.hahas.It was hard on my arms and shoulders though.By the next day I had muscle cramp all over and I got tanner.lols.Oh well..the experience was worth it.
3j chalet was also fun.But many things happen that made me wish I hadn't gone.No offense to 3j people.It was partly my group fault.Caused quite alot of havoc.Esp. with yeexian.Hais.So sorry 3j.We reached there around 11 plus and after putting our stuff at the chalet we went to the bowling alley only to realise it didnt open until 12.So we hung around the pool where peixiang,vis and junfei was swimming.Elix,cheryl,cindy and kah yuen soon arrived and we went back to the chalet shortly after that.We played heart attack and then we went to the bowling alley.Played around 2 games and went to see raymond they all play.By this time there was already a problem with the money issue.Long story.But it was alright in the end.We went back to the chalet and basically hung around in the guys room.Guys are so horny.lols.keep fake raping roger.poor roger.they soon left the room and we took over the beds.I actually plan to have a nice nap cause there was nothing else to do but after chooyeow,roger and junfei came in we decided to have a ghost story telling session.Justina,carmella,elix,cindy,cheryl,me and the 3 guys huddled around and took turns telling ghost stories.Not really scary la.Cause there was plenty of stories which we all have heard before but still it was quite fun.After that session we just sat and 'rested'.lols.At around 6 plus I think,we went out of the room and planned to leave the chalet when shan came up to use that yx said smth about us.She said that luckily we weren't in the girls room and that we didn't have the right to hang about in the rooms cause we didn't pay.She even add a expletive at the end of it.Of coz we were pretty angry but we didn't do anything about it.Yet.We went to the bowling alley and had a quick dinner when we were told yx scolded shan 'knn' cause shan bao tou her.We were very angry about this.I can ignore the fact that she said us but after she took one step further in scolding shan I was very angry.So we went back to the chalet,she walked away,we waited for her to come back,we confronted her,she finally admit she said all that but she admitted unwillingly and angryily and we went home.reached home someone told me she diaoed me from head to botttom and long story la.
Next day went to school,found out that she has been telling people about tis incident.The audacity of it.......hello???..weren't we the wronged party?..she still dare to be angry about our 'short' confrontation.I said 2 lines to her and she said I had a suky attitude...sheesh.I got nothing to say.
Hope this will die over soon.
to0dles`.

making up for lost time.

Im sick,my results stink more than shit but Im happy.I finally can reunite with my precious once more.But I know this will only be a source of temporary happiness till I start thinking about my results again.Its the first day of june holidays and Im at home sick with my brother-AGAIN.I think I have said this before.Sad really.But never mind,I have got my computer!`I think that says it all.Lols.As if.
Im sick again.STORY OF MY LIFE.hais.whatever~
Im bored.bored.bored.
ANYONE CARE TO WATCH STARWARS WITH ME????
PLSPLSPLSPLSPLS.
To0dles`

I'm backkkkkk.....temporary that is.hehes.
hais.was so emotionally drained yesterday after recieving some of my MYE results.it was badddddddd.was shocked at first but soon grew numb to all the failed results.Overall,I failed my emath and amath.but if you just counted the papers I failed 5 whooping subjects.Surprisingly my chinese composition was my only pride.hahas.but in the end still fail my chinese.
went for church encounter camp 13-15 may.it was great!finally met and touched God.though not literally of course.I will never forget that experience.can't wait for the next one.
in e library again.so gtg le.hehes.
to0dles.
god bless.

sitting in da library rite now..
haven't update for ages..am in in middle of mye now.
nothing up...fingers freezing now..gtg...update when my comp is virus free..
haha...
it broke down by e way..hais...

im...
argh.
don't know lah.

feeeeeellll...
nothing.

aiyah.
wo bu guan le la.
wo bu yao xiang abt tis and tat le.

all also not my problems.
when i don't have any problems of my own,
i go and foolishly think about my friends problems.
no wonder my problems are never ending.

took me 15 years to figure tis out.
tis is a break thru wors.
wow.
I DUN CARE ANYMORE.

ya rites...
how could i not care..
they are still my friends.
caring against my will.
hahas.
tok crap.
tis entry is full of crap sia.
not feeling like myself today i guess.
no idea why.

weird entry.

19 days to mid yr.
gahHhHhhhHH
gaGGggGGGGs..
im so dead.
oh ya..tml 2.4km.
oh..then i would die b4 mid yr le.
so nvm.
im halfway thru packing for camp.
to0dles`.

Messy.
This is how I would desribe my life as for now.
I go to school I have to face 3 messy aspects.
-friends.-relationships.-studies.
I come back home from school I have to face 3 other messy aspects.
-father.-mother.-brother.
I am failing my amath.emath.chemistry.physics.chinese.
I have hurt someone deeply earlier this month.
I have not got all those failed papers signed.
Camp is in 6 days,I am not feeling well and my period haven't came.
Its just the fourth month and somehow I have manage to messed up my life.
The only fucking thing I am sucessful in.
Camp is going to be another messy affair with my lugging along 90 packets of tissues for my troubling nose and 90 pads for my period.
Its going to be mucus and blood galore.
Indeed indeed.
Im whacked up.
hahahahaha....
Im at the brink of going into hysterics.
muahahahas.
Basically Im still the same old book loving me but added with a sense of helplessness and remorse.
bleghs.
You know what...I won't give a fiddler's fart about all this messy stuff anymore.
I shall just laadeedaa my life away and fart at people who insults me.
yupp.
=)).
to0dles`.

there had been a feeling lurking about in the corner of my heart and finally I spilled it out yesterday.im sorry for causing so much pain but i had to do it.it was killing me.i couldn't keep lieing to myself.

I went to my church tribe meeting yesterday with wenyan yesterday.had a pretty good time.I felt like I had really connected with God.After the meeting both of us took a taxi to richard house for his bdae celebration.We ate,played truth or dare with richard indo friends,watched tv,played computer and mainly hung out in his 'guest' room.hahas.We purposely off the lights and kept scaring ourselves.Peiyun scared us one time so badly by suddenly opening the curtains then we couldn't stop screaming.lols.We also put out handphone lights under our faces and yifang looked the most scary sia...whole face white white de then eyes so black.The whole time me and mella was listening to avril lavigne.hahas.sadly we weren't at her concert.hais.Also slept and chatted quite alot.Went home around 10plus and sophia and cynthia families were all there.We played heart attack again..haha..so fun.
Sophia also introed me one webby.A riddle website.Damn cheem.I see her solve the riddles I also became muddled up.
www.deathball.net/notpron
can go check it out if interested.
to0dles`.

childhood ambitions

I was reading around random blogs when I came across one that asked us the question,'what is your childhood ambition?'.I remembered numerous teachers asking me that question before.
At primary 1 I decided I wanted to be a teacher because drawing on the blackboard seems fun and those colourful chalks were so attractive.But after seeing the less glamourous side of being a teacher,[eg:cleaning up shit,facing whiny kids everyday etc etc] I decided those chalks were not worth it.
At primary 3 I wanted to be a botanist after I was first introduced to science.I love catching all those pretty butterflies in the garden.But after seeing my smiley face ball falling into the school botanic garden pond I decided to hate science forever as it had swallowed up my ball.
At primary 4 I wanted to be a dancer or preferably a ballerina after seeing some of my friends prancing around in their ballerina gear in school.They all looked so fancy with their tutus hanging around their thighs and that neat bun!But I soon realise its just too gay and girlish for me.
At primary 6 I wanted to be a lawyer but my hopes were dashed as idiotic me only scored a 204 for my psle.How to be lawyer?
Right now I wana be a dj.But who knows what the future will hold for me.
well..gotta dash.
to0dles`.

I conquered something today which I have never thought I would be able to do.
I watched 'The Eye 10" without fainting,crying,running out of the theater,vomitting or beheaving strangely after the movie.Of course I screamt,not those full blown screams or whatever and I also hid behind my niece pink handkerchief during those more terrifying parts.hahas.Me and mella keep sort of screaming together at those particularly scary parts whilst elix kept grabbing kahyuen arm.hahas.I had nachos,popcorn and 1 cheesy hotdog.Pretty full.But I spent most of my time hiding behind my handkerchief.hahas.I still manage to get what is the movie about lah.Can't possibly spent $8.50 just to scare myself and hide behind my handkerchief.
The line at the cinema was damn long sia.Luckily I booked the night before with my dad visa.hahas.With visa you can do anything.AS IF.But luckily we were smart enough to book in advance.You can just imagine those envious looks on those fools who were queuing.hahs.Im just kidding la.But I keep remembering those visa adverts.hahas.dotS.Oh ya...and before they played the movie they had this lame advertisement on the drug thingy.lols."bai tian wo men shi xue sheng,wan shang wo men shi brothers,wo men wan wo men zi qi the rule,bu guan pia ren xiang she me".Something along this lines lah.Ever since sophia told me about this in such a hilarious way everytime I come across this advert I find it funny though its message that it is trying to pass to us is not.
After the movie,we went to bugis to take the traditional pictures and walked around bugis.Me and kahyuen bought a small purse/wallet from pmk.We walked around more and had dinner at Mos burger.hahas.Yifang eat until so messy cause her ingredients keep dropping then in the end she had to scrap them all off.Went to compass point and bought ray and hengry pressies with them more before joining my family who were already there.Bought a billabong sling bag by the way.My mom commented that I seem to have carried my puma sling bag for quite some time now so buy lor.hahas.
Still searching for people to accompany me to watch the avril lavigne concert not to mentions funds.hais.
to0dles`

2nd term has started.*spits*
It didn't get off with such a fantastic start.
For one,Mrs Ang spoke to us.
Next,I have to study for physics,chinese,social studies and emath test for next week.
AND its just the 2nd week of the term.How extremely sad.
Currently rushing with my dnt homework cause I slacked too much during the one week holidays.
Stayed back for physics asp today.Unfair lohs,whole class have to stay.Spent the whole time decorating my A4 size writing pad,staring out of the window and of course reading under the table.Should have just lied to Mr Tan that I have to go to SYF dance practice.Hais.But I'm too guai to lie la.How sad once more.
Going to watch eye10 with elix they all this friday.hahas.My very first horror movie.*search for popcorn box to hide head in*.Hope I don't chicken out halfway through the movie.
Wish me luck*.
to0dles`

Yesterday's dinner was unsatisfyingly expensive...in a way.
Tell me...who won't feel guilty after literally swallowing a $800+ seafood dinner.Actually the right amount is after dividing it by 12 ways but ah who cares.Halfway through dinner some of us were already itching to visit the Mac outlet next door.Where normal food actually exist.
After dinner,they came to our house.The guys hogged the comp while the girls read in the room while munching on assorted junk food.hahas.The guys came in and we decided to play thati and heart attack.Lols.Quite fun la.I also learnt something.I have a dumbass for a brother.His reaction time is even slower than elix's.Hais.Sia sway me nia.haha.jkjk.
Im pretty exhausted today.Had less than 7 hours of snooze time.My mom actually wanted to drag the whole family to pasir ris beach.But I just refused to go.RUN?You actually want ME to go RUNNING?Are you out of your frigging mind????Its a sundays for godsakes.So in the end we didn't go.Muahahahas.And here I am blogging.
to0dles`

Changed my blogskin.Had nothing better to do.
This task occupied me for the better half of the day.
15minutes more to my 2 hour long math tuition.
Dread already seeping into my heart.
*sighs*
How I wish I could escape it.
The whole morning I keep thinking up of numerous excuse to escape it.
Door just opened.
How it startled me into thinking that it was the teacher.
*whew*.
10minutes more.
Someone kill me now!
*speaks into loudspeakers*
'IF ANYONE HAVE THE URGE TO KILL CASSANDRA KOH,NOW IS YOUR CHANCE!GRAB IT BEFORE ITS GONE!'
*whole neighbourhood rushes into my house*
Ya right.
50cent's candyshop blasting through my speakers now.
So not in da mood for it.
Well...I guess its time for me to prepare.
to0dles'.

I got so much on my mind now.Troubling and distracting thoughts.
But I can't spill it out here.
Things aren't just what it seems anymore.
I understand now life can never ever be perfect.
Even if you sort of have everything that you need.
Kinda frustrating.
Suddenly,the past didn't seem so grim.
*sighs*
I really feel like going into a coma now.
Wake up 2 weeks later and everything will be fine and dandy.
Oh who am I kidding???
to0dles.
Duty calls.
HMK SUKS.

I'm back in school for Amath make-up lesson.
*glooms*
5 hours of Amath.
5 freaking hours learning about Amath.
300mins of amath.18000seconds of amath.
Its practically the duration of a normal school day.
Just the thought of it is enough to make me gasp.
y0z pass by t0 say h!!!!!_kar
Erm sorry for that RUDE disruption by kah yuen.
hahas.jkjk.
Im currently messing about with my geometery sketch thingy...pulling the graph lines here and there senselessly.
Im bored!
Woke up at 750am this morning.
Everyone is slacking big time,none really caring about completing our assignment.
Well cept for those exceptional few...namely mr oym.
sheesh.whatever!~
I am really just babbling here but this beats doing my amath.
*Sighs*
We still have a test later.
Argh.
After looking at my sets worksheets for around an hour plus yesterday night,I still don't really get what is sets.
I am so gona fail my amath test.
Yupp.=)
Anyways shall stop disturbing you..
Going to do my work le.
To0dles.Ciao.Adios.Bye.Zai Qian.
As you can see Im pretty unwillingly to leave you.
hahas.
yaya.cut the crap cassie.
lols.
cya.

I actually wanted to rant my pissyness because I was and still is sick on my birthday.
However,I have already accepted my fate and decided to look at the bright side instead of ranting n raving like a loony mad goon-do.
THANK YOU ELIX.CARMELLA.CHERYL AND JIAYUN FOR THE ASHLEE SIMPSON CD.
THANK YOU PEIYUN AND SULING FOR THE CUTE TOP.
THANK YOU YANSHAN FOR THE CUTE CUP.
THANK YOU QIULIN FOR THE HANDPHONE HOLDER.
THANK YOU JUSTINA.WENLING AND MAOPEI FOR THE 2 CUTE SOFT TOY THINGY.
THANK YOU KANGQI FOR THE TEDDY BEAR.
THANK YOU DANIEL.HENGTHYE AND THE REST OF THE GUYS FOR THE ROBBIE WILLIAMS CD.
THANK YOU RAYMOND AND ROGER FOR THE NICE PHOTO FRAME.
LUV Y'ALL.
will thank more people after they have given me their presents.
haha.
jkjk.
Birthday wasn't all that crappy even though I wasn't feeling all that normal.
But if I fall sick next year on my birthday once more I will kill myself.
Twice is already too much.I can definately live without the third time.
to0dles.
ps:happy bdae to chooyeow also and btw how much is the cake????I really want to pay for it.

Yesterday and today has been pretty interesting.
It was our school sport's day yesterday.
Went there by peiyun father lorry.haha.
We all kinda look like the extras from the ring 2 by the end of the ride.
Arrived at tampines stadium at around 1215pm.Ate Mac and ice popsicle.
People started streaming in by 1240pm.
Me and elix were actually hanging around in centuraus.But was chased out by one of the teachers.
So I went to scorpius section and I spot no familiar face.Peiyun comes up to me and asked if I wanted to buy centuraus house t-shirt.In other words,I will be jumping house.Seeing that all my friends in scorpius is running I made a wild choice and bought that lousy red shirt for $5.My ticket to centaurus.I become a traitor.A unfaithful follower.So sue me.
Anyways,yanshan also betrayed her house.hahas.
After that,py.just.ky.suling and me went to tampines mall to eat kfc.
We then took 72 to hougang mall.Freaking long bus journey.
Went home at around 7 plus and celebrated my mom birthday.
Today was tiring.Wasn't feeling all that good.Slept during chinese and geo lesson.Wrote rubbish for geo st.
After school,I hung around peiyun so called 'duty station'.
Damn sissy tan.
He just simply refuses to let me even have a mere glance at it until my parents speak to him.
I waited for like 3 hours.But he left.
Nevermind.
I cheered myself up with food.
Haha.
This time we bullied the sec1 into giving us food from their class barbeques.
hahas.
chooyeow.raymond.daniel.hengthye.sinyan.stewart.junfei and many more kept taking food from them.
Like having a competition of who can get the best and most food.
haha.pretty hilarious.
I had marshmellows.sausages.chips.orange juice.otah from cy.
Had sandwiches from hengthye.
Had chips from daniel.
Had ice lemon tea from raymond.
Had marshmellows from shuchen also.
Was pretty full.
haha.
In the end mr zaidi chased out all the upper sec students though.
So we ended our rendezvous.
Received my results also.
Were disatisfied with my math results.
hais.
Others were okay.
All in the range of b3 and above.
Barely pass my chi but I don't give a damn.
to0dles.

Haven't been blogging up till late.
Shall blog on cheryl birthday party today.
I reached her house at around 6 plus after going to shan house.
Arrived a little breathless and hot cause I had been walking for the whole day.
Walked in the room and the first thing I noticed that was practically all the girls wore black tops and the girls and guys were like hanging in seperate portions of the house.
haha.dots.
We sang despo love songs in cheryl room.watch la pi xiao xin in her living room.played water bombs on the top storey of her carpark.hang around in her computer room or whatever and went home at 11.
Poor elix got hit in the left eye from a water balloon thrown by cy.
It kinda swollen up and reddish.
But after py patiently apply ice on her eyes she got better.
We made cy apologised to her and he had a pretty hard time.
When I was at shan house..we were reminising at our naive sec 2 thoughts.
We had thought that sec3 would be so much more exciting.
We imagined being in the same class.With great teachers and all those exciting upper sec events.
We thought wrong.
What we have now are sucky bitches in our class.Sucky subjects to study like amath and dnt.ESP amath.
My whole class HATES amath.Well...except for mr ong yong ming.But he is not normal like the rest of us.
We hate it so bad whenever it was time for amath..we would purposely walk s l o w l y and try to drag as much as possible.
Argh.
No wonder I scored a 30/100 for my amath ca.
Terrible huh.
I know.

Ok.
A quikie update on my life.
Celebrated Cheryl birthday party yesterday at her house.
Quite a few events happen that I shan't really go elaborate on today.
Went home at around 11 plus.
Went to Kangqi house today.
Had to leave early cause I had to go fetch my mom from the airport.
I forgot to visit my locker on friday.
Argh.Dumb me.
I have to rush my work tomorrow morning.
I hate rushing.
I also hate copying.
But what to do.
I am stupid and lazy mahs.
hahas.
gtg.
toOdles.

Feel like I am drowning in my own pool of fears.And I am sinking lower and lower everytime I think about it.I am trying to break through the surface.Trying to feel the sun rays on my face.Trying to see the bright side of this particular situation.But I can't.
Can I like drop math?My life would be sooooooooooo much easier.Or maybe I should just kill myself...or maybe I should try to get myself sick now..or maybe I should commit a murder and spend my rest of my life in jail.Hm..that sounds like a probable excuse for me to skip math test tomorrow!!
gtg.
to0dles.

Teachers are sadists.
Either they keep us in suspense by not telling us anything about our test scores or they give all our test results back on the same day.
I got back my chi.phy.chem.eng and emath test today.
Chinese.I got a 57/100.But I was still happy.Because at least this time I passed.My expectations for my 'chinese' is way down low.So it was okay for me I guess.
During chemistry,my heart soared.Miss widayah was absent for the day and I scored a 18/20 for my chemistry paper.
During physics,my heart sanked like titanic.Actually it sanked a couple of times.Cause I didn't do my physics homework.And well...the teacher wanted samples from us.So I kept praying that she won't picked mine.She didn't.But what tense moments were those for me.Oh yah.There are even more sadists teachers then those whom I had mentioned above.Those who tell us in the beganning of the lesson they were going to go through our paper only at the end of the lesson.DO U KNOW HOW FREAKIN IRRITATIN IS IT???Anyways,my heart sank once more when it was known to us that those people who got 12/20 and below will be having extra remedial lessons.I got a 14/20.I guess it was so-so.
I guess my heart sank the lowest during emath.Can you believe...the easiest paper and I got a stinkin freakin way downnnnn low 3/15.What kind of shitty marks is this???ARGH.You'd think I would have got used to failing math...but it still hurts.Kinda hard to get use to this.
Then it was english.I am not really sure why.But it was my most nerve wrecking time.My hands grew cold and sweaty in a span of 5 mins while Mrs yong droned on about our main mistakes.Mr ong yong ming particularly annoyed me by smiling sadistically over his shoulders at me though..as if he knew something that I didn't.In the end my heart went back to its normal level again after I found out I beat oym!Ole ole ole ole...He had absolutely nothing to say.I had plenty.Oh boy did I.But I just said "now you can't kpkb with me le".My lack of social skills astound me sometimes.But I can't be bothered being civil with him.I got 23/30 by the way.
After school met up with shu chen they all and elix they all.Suddenly shu chen they all like vanish.Went to school library with lix.mella and jesse.Went to hougang mall with mella and did a lil shopping at ice lemon tee.There was a sale on and me and mella bought 2 tee-shirt for $10.Spent quite some time browsing.hehe.We met up with qiuling,peishan and jocandy.Walked around and went home at around 6 with mella.
All in all a pretty shitty day.
ps:congrts to sophia for doin well for her Os!~
to0dles.

I've got something to announce.
I,Cassandra Koh Li Yi (or more fondly known by kazhua) has bought her very first chinese cd(vcd to be more exact.but wth.)Miracle ain't it?
Yup.
You heard it hear first people.cue for applause!!!*
Thank you Thank you.*waves hands gaily and humbly*
After 15 years.MY FIRST CHINESE CD!~
Its actually jay chou incomparably live concert vcd.
Can see why elix chose him to be her husband.There's just this cool aura around him.He needn't need to act cool unlike so many guys that I know.*hint hint*
hahas.jkjk.
He's just naturally cool not to mention suave in his own way.
Gosh.I'm actually gushing about a CHINESE celebrity.
And have you guys seen him playing the piano?
Omg.
So darn heart melting.
Guys who can actually play the piano properly are sooo attractive.
In fact,guy musicians are in general very attractive.
There's just this extra appeal about them,ya know what Im trying to get at?
Hehe.
Went to jessebelle's house today.
No gambling today.New year is over.Cassandra the guai gerger is back.
Before that,I met chooyeow.daniel.kang cheng and chiyong at heartland mall.
After eating,we headed to minitoons to buy bdae pressie for cheryl.
Guys beheave sooo differently from girls when shopping.
After that,we met joey.xinying.amy.jocandy and kangqi.
And we begin our hike to jessebelle's house.
Like a bunch of fools.We decided to literally hike to her house instead of just simply hailing a cab.
The sun shone mercilessly down on us and the road to jess's house seem to stretch for miles.
My charles and keith shoes were killling me.
We berated ourselves for not hailing a cab and complained that jess better had her aircon on full blast and iced water prepared for us.
And luckily,she did.
Otherwise she would have to meet with 10 angry,hot and pissed people.
hahas.
jkjk.
Anyways to sum it all up.
We ate pizza and potato wedges.Watched jimmy neutron(hahaha).Watched happy tree friends and laughed at all those sadistic scenes.
Went to heartland mall's burger king with the guys and kangqi.
Reached home around 7.
And now Im here blogging and oggling at jay chou once more.
to0dles.

Has wrist cutting become a fad or something?
Cause Im not really catching something here.
I mean...is it very pleasurable or whatever??
Or just because when you are depress you are suppose to cut your wrist?
It seems like everywhere I turn there's a standard line of cut across their wrist.
Er..HELLLLOOO...
In case you haven't notice...
causing pain on yourself ain't a very smart thing.
DUH.
No offence or anything.
This is just my personal opinion.
Guess its just my way of showing my twisted concern.
gtg.
family dinner once more.
to0dles.

I have been wallowing in self pity lately.
Because of what a certain someone said.
Im walking around with a perpetual glazed look in my eyes.
Esp during periods in between amath and emath.
Those are the worse.
Been disappointed in several stuff lately.
Will perhaps elaborate some other day.

wallowing in self pity

Haven't been a good girl lately.
All I have been doing most of late is gambling!
On wednesday it was hengthye house.
On friday it was elix house.
Later I am going to cindy house and tomorrow pei yun house.
I came up with a theory.
I can't win at gambling at guys house.
Simply can't.
I am not sure why either.
Anyways.
My brillant future telling skills popped up again.
I dreamt that elix changed her blogskin.
And to my surprise..she really changed!
Muahahahas.
My skills are indeed evolving.
Yup.
hahas.
crapping la.
but really la....quite surprise.
oh well..gtg to cindy house le..
to0dles

yayaya

Today is the long awaited Vday.
Rose scented air wafted into my room.
Clouds seem to be adorned in the shape of hearts.
The sun seem brighter and everyone had a special glow about them.
It was lurrveee in da air baby!~
OMG...like who am I kidding???
So digusted by the paragraph above.
Hahas.
Actually I didn't even know it was Valentine's day till shan told me in school
I was like....er..ya so? with that 'oh get lost I just woke up from a bad dream mood'.
I was damn lethegic throughout school today.
Had to visit the Doc at 2 am the following night due to bad case of stomach cramps.
Was especially hard to keep awake during chemistry.
Contrast to the paragraph above the day seemed pretty bleaked.
Esp when I see other girls valentine's gifts from that special one.
Aiyoh...so jealous leis.
Hais.
Of course I not that despo yet to buy myself one.
But I think I close to doing it.haha
jkjk.
Went home with mella.lix and cheryl.
Bouqets of flowers,balloons in the shapes of heart.
Felt like I was being stabbed in the heart everytime one of those passed me.
See no evil.
Went home alive but just barely and I drown my sorrows with a martinee.
Like real.
well....
what can I say.
Oh ya..wana know whate I wrote for my secret 'pal' yong ming?
The bfore edited one goes like this
Dear mutherfuker overachiever yong ming,
^%$#$% lalala...yayaya like whatever ya noe.
Sincerely hope you have a miserable happy 'appreciation' day.
Don't study too hard le la..in other words,
GET A LIFE.
Sincerely yours
Cassandra.

Thing on my mind now is probably about the 2nd last episode of the amazing race.The part where aaron proposed to hayden.I was seriously surprised.I actually thought that he was going to break up with her.But oh nooo...it was the other way round.From what I had observed,she was driving him mad with her paranoidness and he was driving her mad with his laid back attitude.They both break down on tt episode and was the last team to arrive.But.......he proposed to her.Right there and then,I realised I didn't understand love as well as I thought I did.I was kinda confused.And I don't like to feel confused.So there I was going hysterical.Just because I couldn't fucking get love no matter how hard I tried.Thats frustrating to me.
Caught 'I do I do' with kahyuen today.Poor Kah yuen.She had to endure a pornshow beside her throughout the entire movie.hahas.Felt like telling that couple to go to a hotel than a theatre.I wonder why they bothered to waste their money on a pair of movie tics.Never mind.I bet all movie directors love this kind of pp.Use 'going to catch a movie' excuse to actually make out intensly under the dark surroundings of a theatre despite how bad the movie might be.
its late.shan't rant no more.to0dles

gamble!~

I have been spending the last two days gambling my ass off.Went to Daniel's house on thursday with peiyun and yanshan.Met peiyun and choo yeow at hougang plaza bus stop at arnd 130.Peiyun arrived around 20mins later and we hailed a cab to dan's house.When we reached his block py discovered that there was actually more than 4 guys going.No wonder she was so easy going about the whole 'so much more guys than girls' thing.We both almost chickened out actually.hahas.In the end we had to go in because.........we were already standing outside his freaking doorstep.Stupid hors.At first it was only dan,chiyong,chooyeow,peiyun and me in da house.It was only later when we both went to the toilet when vis,kangcheng and gary came.Oh the horrors.Soo there was me and peiyun hiding in the toilet-unwillingly to get out.hahas.We went out in the end of course,after summoning up much courage.Lols.After the guys ate we started gambling in dan's room.I was pretty quiet throughout it though.Yanshan joined us later and sadly because the number of guys there we girls couldn't exactly get 'hiong' like we were in zen house in sec1.How I miss those days.....Anyways...back to dan's house...
After py,vis and gary had left we started playing thaiti.No money involved though..alot of us were pretty much broke.I realised later that I had walked in to dan house with $46 sitting in my wallet but after I came out I had only $23 left.Oh the horror.They asked me and yanshan to go to kaly house with them but we two wanted to have 'er ren shi jie'.hahas.talk cock.Went to compass point Mac and had twister fries.Went home around 7 and had dinner.Full sia.
Anyways Im sick of blogging today so I shall blog tml on yesterday.
to0dles.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!`
For the sake of getting into the festive mood I going to use the colour red for my font.hahas.Don't even know why I'm telling you guys this.For the new year renunion dinner,my family went over to my cousin's condo and had buffet by the pool.3 words to describe it.Blustry.Dark.Weird.
hahas.
But it was cool.As in literally cool.A good break from Sg's usual humid weather.Kinda regretted wearing skirt though.Such inconvenience.Was bored though.No one to really hang with.Luckily I brought my book.By the end of the night I had finish 3/4 of it.I was THAT bored.After reading I then remembered that I had loan my hp to my bro and I hadn't seen him or my hp for ages.Off I go searching for him.And guess what I saw?Why...they were placing prank calls.How surprising.NOT.Ok..I admit.It was darn funny.Esp when my cousin did the obi-1 konobi.Not exactly sure about the spelling.I couldn't help giggling when he did those prank calls.
We left around 11 and my mom actually wanted to make a detour to some lame flower garden to get in da mood` but we all protested vehemently and she soon gave up the fight.Went home and immediately headed to the computer.I spent the new yr 2005 in gb...and when it turned to chi new yr 2005 I was also in gb.
Pathetic huh.Wish I was out with my girlfriends out clubbing and joining the city's countdown.hahas.Like real.
I guess after 15 years my new year has been pretty predictable.It was going to that same house seeing the same pp and feeling the same boredom.Gosh..I'm such a wet blanket sometimes.
Guess I shall stop here.
to0dles.

yadayada

I don't want to write any more depressing entries.But its seems like its only when I feel down then I would feel like blogging.
Never mind.I will try to keep things to norm.
Today was a pretty heavy day.We had phy/chem.amath/math.eng/chi.
Whew`.
Attended math cube briefing after school.Luckily it was pretty short.
I am worried I will be in da red group.I think its a sure thing Im going be in that group.
Went to compass point with lix and mella and we had our lunch there.Lix also bought a box of chocolates for a friend.Sat 161 home with mella.And of course we chatted non stop once more.
Ya noe what...
I don't feel like blogging what I don't really want to blog.
So I shall stop here.

frustrations

V-day is coming.
Red roses.Pink hearts.Lovey dovey songs.
They can all kiss my ass.
Blegh.
Especially wonderful time for us poor singletons.
Puiiiii.
I think I going to be doing what I have been doing during Vday for the last 15 yrs.
Hole myself up at home.
Watch sappy movies.
Hear mushy toe curling disgusting declaration of love radio dedications on radio.
Oh the woes of being single.
Shall not feel sorry for one self any longer.
Sunday.Sunday.Sunday.
HmmmmMMm.
Chinese tuition was particularly frustrating.
I had engaged the help of my teacher to test me my chinese spelling.
Thing is.
While I was trying to remember the strokes for that word she would babble on and on entirely on a different word.
I was messed up.
I wanted her to shut up badly.
How annoying.
Her voice got my nerves seriously tested.
Arghhhh.
In the end of course I didn't learn much at all.
So ya.
I know she wants to impress my dad and all with all her 'extra' knowledge on the word.
But thats simply not the way to do it.
The words 'DIAM LA' was constantly on my mind.
You wana show how capable you are to my parents?
Fucking teach them la.
Take IQ test la
Don't come disturb me.
I am already such a disturbed girl.
hahas.
Jk.
But seriously woman you should shut up for once.
You shut up and just maybe for once I might pass my chinese test.
Really.
The world would be a better place.

Im bored.
I was bored yesterday and I am still bored today.
Very very bored and restless.
I was so bored I did my amath homework.
I was so bored I watched 'hey arnold' on tv.
I was so bored I watched the rerun of 'school of rock' again and fell asleep while doing so.
School let us out at 10am and as predicted I went home alone.
How miserable.
I never thought I would say this but I'd rather stayed back and watch the investiture.
I past my time at home restlessly and blegh-lessly.
Today I woke up and felt like crap.
Cheered myself up by eating chocolate cream pie in da early morn.
Nothing much to blog actually.
I guess it was because I was bored.
hahas.
to0dles

Ok.
So maybe I came across a little TOO depressive in my previous entry.
I was, I guess a lil pissed at the world.
And being the dramatic me........so ya...
Anyways.
About today.
It was this and that.Here and there.
Highlight of the day was probably the skits put up by 3kn3j.
Was also very glad to hear that school will be ending at 10am the next day.
10am.
Wowhee.
Hm...what should I do with myself?
I probably just go home-alone once more seeing that all my friends are either involved with the investiture thingy or cca.
Alas,
whats the point of letting us off early?
Oh well.
At least we won't be having our chinese spelling tml.
Im totally babbling here.
Went to elix's house today.
She actually invited me to go.
We use to had to beg her to let us go.
Lols.
Went there,scan pictures,watched ufo baby,did hmk(yes we did actually),talked and of course listen to jay chou.
Lols.
All in all a pleasant afternoon.
I came to realise that I am not sounding like myself in this entry.
Sound too erm....formal?
Hais.
Oh ya.
My secret pal.
The very thought of it set my toes to quiver in disgust.
Damn gay.
I intend to make as lil contact as possible.
He better cooperate.
Miss wong told us more on the trip to china.
I am in a muddle now.
Should I go or should I not?
Its like if I put down my name.
I am in.
Full stop.
Soooo....must give it more thought.
Time gona be running out soon though.
hais.
See bahs.
till then
me