im...
argh.
don't know lah.

feeeeeellll...
nothing.

aiyah.
wo bu guan le la.
wo bu yao xiang abt tis and tat le.

all also not my problems.
when i don't have any problems of my own,
i go and foolishly think about my friends problems.
no wonder my problems are never ending.

took me 15 years to figure tis out.
tis is a break thru wors.
wow.
I DUN CARE ANYMORE.

ya rites...
how could i not care..
they are still my friends.
caring against my will.
hahas.
tok crap.
tis entry is full of crap sia.
not feeling like myself today i guess.
no idea why.

weird entry.

19 days to mid yr.
gahHhHhhhHH
gaGGggGGGGs..
im so dead.
oh ya..tml 2.4km.
oh..then i would die b4 mid yr le.
so nvm.
im halfway thru packing for camp.
to0dles`.

Messy.
This is how I would desribe my life as for now.
I go to school I have to face 3 messy aspects.
-friends.-relationships.-studies.
I come back home from school I have to face 3 other messy aspects.
-father.-mother.-brother.
I am failing my amath.emath.chemistry.physics.chinese.
I have hurt someone deeply earlier this month.
I have not got all those failed papers signed.
Camp is in 6 days,I am not feeling well and my period haven't came.
Its just the fourth month and somehow I have manage to messed up my life.
The only fucking thing I am sucessful in.
Camp is going to be another messy affair with my lugging along 90 packets of tissues for my troubling nose and 90 pads for my period.
Its going to be mucus and blood galore.
Indeed indeed.
Im whacked up.
hahahahaha....
Im at the brink of going into hysterics.
muahahahas.
Basically Im still the same old book loving me but added with a sense of helplessness and remorse.
bleghs.
You know what...I won't give a fiddler's fart about all this messy stuff anymore.
I shall just laadeedaa my life away and fart at people who insults me.
yupp.
=)).
to0dles`.

there had been a feeling lurking about in the corner of my heart and finally I spilled it out yesterday.im sorry for causing so much pain but i had to do it.it was killing me.i couldn't keep lieing to myself.

I went to my church tribe meeting yesterday with wenyan yesterday.had a pretty good time.I felt like I had really connected with God.After the meeting both of us took a taxi to richard house for his bdae celebration.We ate,played truth or dare with richard indo friends,watched tv,played computer and mainly hung out in his 'guest' room.hahas.We purposely off the lights and kept scaring ourselves.Peiyun scared us one time so badly by suddenly opening the curtains then we couldn't stop screaming.lols.We also put out handphone lights under our faces and yifang looked the most scary sia...whole face white white de then eyes so black.The whole time me and mella was listening to avril lavigne.hahas.sadly we weren't at her concert.hais.Also slept and chatted quite alot.Went home around 10plus and sophia and cynthia families were all there.We played heart attack again..haha..so fun.
Sophia also introed me one webby.A riddle website.Damn cheem.I see her solve the riddles I also became muddled up.
www.deathball.net/notpron
can go check it out if interested.
to0dles`.