why are people more often fake than real to one another?
even i find myself fake-AT TIMES and yet i still don't know why.
maybe cause everyone is still trying to find out who they really are.
i sure am.

i think ice cream tastes better on a cold day.


and i really dislike new bedsheets. *wrinkles nose*
but my new comforter is nice. ^^

nights.

its 3am in the morning and i'm playing songs over and over again.
the silence unsettles me.

nobody said it was easy.
nobody said it would be this hard.
its such a shame for us to part.
i'll take you back to the start.

and i just realise the scientist by coldplay is a love song.

its a good time to be bloody melancholic and weep about my sad existence but i'm too warped up by nothing and i feel nothing.
life right now is just as it is.
i am glad.
kinda.

for once i'm not caught up in throes of tormenting thoughts in my wacked head and
there's nothing for me to ache over except that i have nothing to ache over.

either my days are too empty or they are so completely packed i don't even have time to comprehend how i'm feeling.
what happened to moderation?
oh yeah,the word got erased from the world's vocab list the moment i learnt the joys of eating.

i can't play screamy rocky songs by matchbook romance or the red jumpsuit apparatus cause i will have the rest of the household up in which they will chance upon a nutcase jumping about erractically and bopping her head wildly while mimicking to be the next travis barker.

did i get lost while i was gone?
i travelled space for much too long.

i'm not sure why this 2 lines get to me so much and i end up playing space travel by yellowcard again and again for this 2 lines.

i like being awake at this timing too much to start rescheduling the time i get tired and become truly awake.
i should be sleeping by 12,awake by 8 which i will then go for a morning jog,take a shower,read the bible and then have breakfast.
but i'm still living the unorthodox lifestyle (perhaps not to aspring branded eyebags carrier out there but to the rest of the world population) cause i like it.
too bad my body is kinda crumpling over it.

(my thoughts seems to run wild at this timing and i like it-being able to 'black and white' my thoughts and all.)
lol

the europe trip i was suppose to plan for and was hoping for has been crossed out by my dad not being able to take off days and my brother's insufferable attitude to travelling.
he feels its a waste of money to explore the world and to get a taste of different lifestyles when you can experience the same thing on a playstation 2.

which is why i'm going to CHINA with my mom and aunt instead.
it had to be CHINA.
but i guess it won't be all that bad.
i better be there to experience old china before the new technologised china completely takes over and rob its old charm of quaint villages and no toilet doors rule.

i'm off..
into nothingness.

i scalded myself with peanut butter today.

it sounds impossible,but i made it possible.

see the redness in my index and middle finger?

the skin became swollen after that and it hurt like nobody's business.

its always my fingers that get hit.

i ushered in church yesterday again cause i had to replace wenling.

joey's legacy lived on and we did our madcap waving and smiling hysterically when service ended.

before service started,we had some time on our hands and took some pictures that should be on the cover page of USHER magazine.

from the left:kahyuen,shairul and pamela

they tried to look cool-in case you can't tell (which most prolly is the case.HEHS)

THIS is how you do the cool look people.

or when the hat on your head cuts off the blood circulation to your brain.

some normal smiley ones.

the girls on the team. from left:kahyuen,oliver,pamela,jasmine,eunice,wenjing and nutcase.

the shadows look like tombstones.

and i have no idea who took this pic.

lol

today was full on slack day!

w00ts.

bye.

before leaving for malaysia 3 days back,my bro and i seriously reconsidered even going because spending an entire day in kluang really didn't appeal to us.
johor bahru was okay i guess,but i'd very much prefer to go to kl.
in the end,it turned out to be okay-because of all the funny anecdotes and moments .

1st day.
my maid forgot to bring along her work permit and she and my dad had to go to the 'office' and settle it.
30 very useless minutes later,we were forced to head all the way back to hougang.
imagine the exasperation and frustration.
needless to say,my bro handled it the worse by continually kicking my maid's chair repeatedly.

me after knowing.

shania with my bolster.

when we finally got through customs,it was already around 2pm.

i was actually pretty happy about the time cause that means i will be sending less time in kluang.
the hotel we stayed in was the same from last year.
we even got the same floor-13th.
i wish i could say the view made up for the somewhat less than nice interior but i can't.

definately different though.

lol
there was a mall right next to the hotel and my brother loved it cause it sold ps2 games as cheap as rm2.50.
they had a departmental store aptly named 'the store' as well.

so original that i love it.
*sniggers*
i bought a pair of white pumps and that was my 1 out of 2 purchase that i made on this trip.
bleah
we had dinner at a place (i think the name was in chinese) and the curry fish head was fantastic la.

charlotte with her baby biscuits!

the dinner made up for the day.
went back to the hotel while the adults went to check out the clubbing places.
im like,'you mean there's actually clubs? modern establishments?'
BUT i opt for the hotel room because MY AUNT DVD PORTABLE PLAYER WAS IN OUR POSSESION AND WE WATCHED JOHN TUCKER MUST DIE ON IT!
hehehe

2nd day.
woke up extremely late and missed the morning shopping-meaning i didn't miss anything.
lol
had bah ku teh for breakfast and it was GGOOODD.
notice the pattern here?
i think the people there are so deprived of everything else they spend the rest of their time making good food.
left for johor at around 2plus and the had another food break at another nameless place and manage to finish half a plate of fried kway teow.
the hotel room was pretty decent.
super comfy beds and pillows.
the view was a sea and the bank of singapore.

it also had a mall right next to it and the mall though a notch better,it was still worse than your neighbourhood malls.
shania new shoes gave out on her and gave her unwanted blisters.
and all she had left were----hotel slippers.

haha

i stepped on it and it almost gave out on her as well.

(see the tear on her right slipper?)
we had another food break at an italian place and i had fries and garlic bread.
my mushroom soup taste like saltwater and when we asked for one which tasted better,they gave us watery saltwater.

genius at it? not as salty anymore! *notes very sarcastically*
we went back to our rooms and 16 of us trooped into my ah ma room and gambled for 2 hours.
haha
surprisingly i have most fun when im gambling with family members.
just the whole jovial and easy atmosphere.
i won $46 in total!

(ps:JOEY,gambling ain't wrong unless it takes over your life--pastor khong said so before and i betcha you weren't listening!)
hehahehoheha.
went for dinner after that at a seafood restoran where they killed live frogs for all to see.
didn't have much of a appetite for THAT meal after all that i've eaten,plus my bro was irritating the crap out of me.

3rd day.
(wah..this whole bloggin about trip is getting super duper boring. )
lol

took some pics for the sake of memory keepsake.

before going back to sg,we shopped at this big ass mall which was almost as good as vivo.
bought a pair of levis after much persuasion cause i didn't want to spend any more money on bottoms.
only bought it cause it was cheaper there.
had lunch(meal no.2) at a place called vivo (-.-...) and was freaking stuffed after that--or so i thought.
we made our way out of msia around 3 and stopped at a not so appealing place for prata.
the prata is damn different (in a sort of good way) and was served with sardine curry.
kinda weird but i manage to finish 1.

traffic to customs were horrigible but me and my bro sang through the songlist of my mp3 while doing wacked movements which i bet scare the bus drivers behind us.
this trip has turned me into such a pig.
end of it.

anyways,i immediately went to wenyan house after entering singapore and had to miss going to cheryl cause too late le.
i arrived in time for the steamboat dinner and had my who knows no. what meal.
even typing this out im scaring myself.
lol
went back home to see that another gambling session was in place at my ah ma house.
i went in like 'oooh..money money money'
haha
we moved to aunt's place next door and 12 of us played till 11pm.
i only made a profit of $12 though.
aunty ah yee became the big winner after winning the $72 during the last round.
well.
cny has been more interesting than i thought it would be.
many classic moments.
here's one.
my bro:say some more,say some more! (pissed at my niece for saying something which er...pissed him off. lol)
my niece:' (very innocently) say what??'
hahaha.
my bro was speechless i tell you.
she really didn't know what he was talking about.

went to orchard today with mommy cause she wanted to get skincare products and i accompanied her there since is damn boring to go orchard alone. (actually i also wanted to spend her money. LOL

It was very boring to be waiting for something equally as boring.

(IF IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE THEN U SUCK!HAHAHA)

i OWNED ngee ann city that afternoon!

after that,i dragged her to heeren and bought two vintage tees from queen's couture! that about settles my CNY shopping.LOL

aren't i low maintenace?

when in doubt and single on valentine's day,go to ikea.

you have less of a chance seeing many PDA because its one of the least romantic place in sg.

best of all,it wasn't very crowded at all and you can do all sorts of wacked up and silly things with the furniture and have a hell of a fun time with your fellow swinging singles.(again,i sound like something out of a brochure...-.-

WENYAN: 'SINGLE CANNOT IS IT?YOU GOT A PROBLEM WITH THAT?'

CHERIE AND ME:' EH,NO PROBLEM AT ALL.' (NOTE MY OH SO FAKE SMILE.LOL)

WENYAN:'EH,HEHE.ACTUALLY IM NOT SINGLE LA'

AT THE CHILDREN'S DEPARTMENT. THIS PIC WAS SO DISTURBING A DAD STARED AT US AS IF THINKING 'WHAT THE HECK YOU GUYS DOING?' LOL .

THE FUTURE DONALDILA TRUMP.

THE PERFECT CANDLELIGHT DINNER SCENE. LOL

WENYAN IS ALL GROWN UP.

LOOK AT HOW EXCITED SHE IS WITH HER NEW RI PANTS.

THE MIRROR FOR ONLY HIGHLY ZI LIAN PEOPLE.

IT COVERS ALL 4 SIDES MAN.LOL

MY IDEAL READING CORNER.WOOTS.

THEY SAID I LOOKED LIKE I JUST DIED AFTER WRITING MY WILL.

LOL

FIGHT AGAINST CONSTIPATION!!!!!!!

CHERIE LOVE BIG BUTTS AND SHE CANNOT LIE.

RIGHT BEFORE SHE DROWNED.

IKEA BEDS-'SO SPRINGY YOU CAN FLY'

JAWS 3

PRATA CHEFS. DON'T WE LOOK SEXY. YOU KNOW WE DO.

FLOWER FROM MR IKEA

ANNNND THATS ABOUT IT.

LOL

IT WAS SILLY WASN'T IT

BUHBYE

after much hesitation,deliberation,asking of everyone i come across (online,real life,conference) and resorting to drawing lots while wy,joey and leo prayed for me over the phone AND asking my mama for poly advice (when she actually went to jc so she had to research for me as well.THXXXXXX)

I HAVE SENT IN MY APPLICATION TO MY FUTURE

i spent the entire day stressing over it AND my pimple at the side of my nose grew with it,super bothering me now.

i was really in a dilemma about choosing sp or tp for the communications and media course.

strangely enough,i was sooo put off about needing to go for an interview i pushed mass communications in np to my 5th choice.

my heart said to choose tp (cause its enviroment seem so much cooler and friendlier,plus lots of my friends are going there as well) but the rest of me and my parents said to choose sp.

so...

i chose sp.

though i knew joey chose tp for the same course (that really challenged me la,cause if i go tp i will have her by my side!!! )

but sp became my first choice cause its the better poly academically

1.media n comm (S86)

2.comm n media mang. (T40)

3.innova jc (arts)

4.serangoon jc (arts)

5.mass comm

6.psychology and community services

and the rest is a jumble of tourism courses and such and the odd aviation and management course BECAUSE it sounded the least threatening business course.LOL

anyways,tomorrow is val's day.

me and the girls tried to think up of something to do for tomorrow..but still have no idea.

everywhere is going to be like couple infested la.

friday is fully pack though. (of course in a good way)

having farewell lunch at nydc for charmaine who is going to bangkok for INTERNATIONAL SOCCER PRE OLYMPICS TOURNAMENT at around 12 or so.

then there's the davies 'looking at guitars thing' with the smartkids youthleaders from 2-4(and im going cause even though i don't play a thing i have the bassist face so i shoud go. LOLOL) and THEN purple liners meeting up for movie and dinner perhaps.

i wonder how it will all work out or if all these things will actually happen.

haha.

at innova jc funfair!!!

super duper hot on that day.

so hot that after walking 3 rounds round the running track i got almost burnt.

i drank like,6 cups of milo and still hot.

after a chocolate pudding,still hot.

after half a bottle of mineral water,still hot.

after trying to shoot the flames down of a candle using a weak ass water gun AND paying $3 bucks for that 1 min,still hot.

after being the only one out of wy,jo,pads and my bro kicking the damn soccer ball into the hole,smoking hot.

LOL.

we damn sad la,24 attempts to try get a soccer ball into a hole only 1 sucessful.

the sky looks very pleasant and friendly in the pictures though.


wenyan!!! sun intake-->95.999% and looking happy about that UNTIL she had to deal with her burns later. LOL

joey!!acting like a lost boy for the camera (or maybe its because pads pang seh him a few minutes earlier for spring cleaning.LOL..how sad is that?)


oliver and wenling! nice angle right??they look like they standing on a hill...if only.


kahyuen!! not too happy with the sun and looking her cool usual self.

a close up shot of my bro (taken by oli.) and wenyan is trying to kiss joey to cheer him up.LOL

here is what happens when you absorb too much harmful uv rays.

kahyuen's expression says it all.

when the effects start to really sink in.LOL

well....its 125am....im not tired yet.

but tired of bloggin.

lol.

toodles.

the inevitable came.
my grandpa came to know my results and of course,i was....sigh,not so looking forward to the verdict.
compared to all my academically outstanding cousins(doctors,lawyers,uni in england,in usa, yada yada) my results are embarrassing to be even talked about.
when asked how many As i got,my dad bellowed, "2As" and i cringed with much discomfort at the situation at hand knowing how my grandpa will think of it.
he let me know a while later when he said he'd give me a thousand bucks and told me to study harder cause i didn't really do well this time.
(when have i ever?)
well,it left me kinda sad and wholly unsatisfied with myself.
another cousin of mine had recieve 10grand for getting into uni and knowing this,i rather not accept my 1grand cause it seem so pathetic.
i know,such childish thinking.
anyhows,this left me wanting to push myself harder,to let my grandpa be happy for or proud of me.
maybe i should give myself a chance for jc.

i came up with this theory.
we all know how soooo many $%^# smart people are now opting to go to poly instead of jc.
like yongming who got 7 pts and choosing to mechatronics at poly. (the world is wacked.enough said.)
with stiff competition like that,how the heck we normal people going to make it to uni??
so,since the smart people are now shifting to polys,the people left going to jc should be of easier competition ain't it?
aren't i the genius?
which is why.......i have not gave in my application form despite knowing the courses i'd like to take at poly.

yup.
thats about it today.
toodle loo.

this was suppose to be our formal shot.
HAHA.
we tried.
really,we did.



the informal shot.
my leg is not heavy!(although it does look like it)
this picture just proves that people CAN look HOT in green and yellow.
hehehe.

at the back:the 2 joeys(LOL) and wenyan.

front row:nutcase,keesiao,kahyuen,emma,yunyu and benny.

ushering was surprisingly fun.

i really tabuleh tah han the hat though.

my fringe was super duperly itchy la.

when service was over,we stood outside the gate and whenever people exited we'd jumped out and shout 'bye!!!god bless you!!' *cue billion dollar watt smile* and wave our hands in a very stylo milo manner.

needless to say,we scared quite a few people but made many smile more.

we rock la.

lol

anyways,

im tired.

going to watch 'little miss sunshine' soon!!

finally.

lol

so,i got home today and was 3 bites down my ramily burger when my parents' rant started.
i finally realised why i learnt english and chinese.
on my left sat my dad and on my right sat my mom.
the whole thing started innocently enough,with my mom asking me if i had made any firm decision regarding my...oh..you know...my FUTURE.
i'm like, 'you know,this and that,here and there...most likely going temasek poly la'
DUN DUN DUN

mistake to mention anything significant cause that gave material for my parents to start ranting.
my mom was like, 'what?temasek poly?why go there if you can go to singapore or ngee ann?'(IN CHI)
my dad was still keeping quiet at this juncture cause that's what men do,ignore the situation that's building up till it gets out of control and they can play hero.

ANYWAYS,
me, 'ngee ann is like soo far la,i don't want to travel such a long distance' (IN CHI)
mom,'you see your cousin weiling ar,live in tampines also don't want to go temasek,she rather go singapore poly.all the bengs and lians in temasek one la' (IN CHI)
me, 'aiya...i haven't really go confirm la,but tp is so much closer and besides there is a course there for me (STIL IN CHI)
dad, 'you think that tampines is near ? i don't think its near.' (IN ENG)
mom,'yea la,somemore trips on bus is damn uncomfortable one,bang here and there.got nice smooth mrt ride don't want' (IN CHI)
me,'but clementi and dover lehs' (IN....CHI I TINK?LOL)
dad,'i still don't think tampines is near,i think clementi and dover isn't that far' (IN ENG)
mom,'yea la,i can also drop you off at nearer mrt stations on the way to work what' (IN CHI)
me, helplessly munching away on my ramily.
me.'but hor..singapore poly no hot guys lehs.only ngee ann and temasek have'(IN CHI..FOR MY MOM BENEFIT CAUSE MY DAD CAN UNDERSTAND MORE CHI THAN SHE CAN ENG)
mom, 'your cousin derrick in singapore poly lehs,where got no hot guys,he is already one of them' (IN CHI)
me,'thats my COUSIN you talking about! ...wah........-.-" ' (IN CHI)
dad,'WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?what hot guys??we are talking about your studies here. (IN ENG)
mom,'what about we move to heritage view la?(our condo in dover),then you will be close to singapore poly' (IN CHI)
bro cuts in,'heyy what about me?? '(IN ENG)

AND THE CONVERSATION WENT ON AND ON.
i nearly went nuts hearing english in one ear and chinese in the other.
my parents marriage work in strange ways i must say.

anyways,regarding my results.
its,somewhere in between.
i got 17 for my L1R5 and 13 for L1R4.
i'm disappointed in my english cause i only manage to scrap an A2,i bet my oral and comprehension killed me.
but thank God i passed my sci (b4,LOL.seems lousy to many people but its a whole lot of difference from my f9 in prelims) and my math (b3).
luckily i got A2 for dnt cause i won't feel that its time wasted.
like my english,i was also disappointed in my humans but i knew i did not give my best shot so a b3 is not really a surprise for me.
i do know this is the mark that god gave to me so YUP. thank God.
i prayed for 18 and 12 so 17 and 13 ain't all that bad la.
LOL

trying to pursue normality here.


so,being the genius we were,we figured shopping before the day of the RESULTS will help put our mind off it.
it was all fine and dandy for the first couple of hours but then the paranoia starts to kick in and then we started to psycho ourselves out.
it was so hard to stand such overwhelming emotions while doing something as mundane as shopping.
there were so many a time when i felt just like curling up and bleching all of that out.
looking at cheryl and wenyan i'd be reminded of tomorrow over and over again.
cheryl keep saying not to mention about tomorrow but she was the one who kept bringing it up!
once after walking out of zara,we all freak out together and we couldn't even walk.
wenyan had her hand to her heart and kept saying she could feel it beating while cheryl was plastered to the display window of zara,trying to calm herself down with the coolnes.
LOL
and i was like on panic mood,close to squatting and weeping out my nervousness.
psycho yes?
at the toy store,i felt so panicky,i started playing with the toys and did the same action over and over again.
wenyan said she felt scared by the way i play cause i had this empty look in my eyes.
haha.
i was trying to zone out from my anxiety la.

the same up and down motion of the bridge.LOL

dinner time was worse.
for me,any moment when i wasn't concentrating on anything else,i'd be thinking about tomorrow.
and i think alot when i eat.
whenever a silent moment approached,we would urge each other to talk so we won't even go THERE.
wenyan sweddish meat balls were damnnnn freaky la.
like some infected rotting balls.

me and cheryl didn't even dare to look at it but she finished it clean.
that's wenyan all right.
lol

anyways,it was definately a different 'shopping' experience though we spent more time freaking out than shopping.
*shrugs*
going to pray reallllll hard tonight.
lol

us.cool and calm.beware of those cool and quiet ones.lol

this entry has been far from normal

i feel like putting up some of my stuff( clothes,belts etc) for sale online.
looking through my wardrobe today,i saw stuff i didn't know i had.
i guess im the sort who keeps wearing the same stuff if i like it and then neglect the rest.
but the whole money exchange thing plus needing to meeting up is a tad bit troublesome.
anyone who thinks its a good idea give me a hands up!
LOL

im off for the leaders meeting now.
will blog later.

toodle loo.

i've always looked forward to fridays.
so it shouldn't be any different this time.
yup.
it shouldn't be.
i l ooo oooo vvvv eeeeeee fridays.
*nods head assuringly*
fridays rocks my sockless feet!!!!

whatever results i recieve,its all part of God's wonderful plan for me.
i just pray that i will choose the course he wants me to be in.

we brought the smartkids to the library today!
i had finn and stacey under me and the main agenda was to help them nurture a love for reading.
(i sound like some corny psycho crap)
now,i remember very clearly that when i was 9 or 11,i read books on the usual enid blyton,roald dahl and (sweet valley kids and twins--->super embarrassing piece of info here) other random stuff.

we get there and immediately these two started giving me trouble so to speak.
stacey,wanted to go up to the adults section cause she wanted to read up on handicraft!
at that point,she seem to me the oldest 11 year old i've met.
so i finally manage to convince finn and her that handicraft isn't going to help you in your composition as there are limited vocabulary in there.

and then....... came the saga of 'i only want to read mr midnite and mary kate and ashley!'.
WHAT SO FREAKING GOOD ABOUT MR MIDNIGHT??? THAT GUY IS LIKE,EXPOILTING THE KIDS OF SINGAPORE LA.
stacey even swooned over his printed signature cause she thought it was real.
see what i mean???
it was almost impossible to ask this 2 young sweet girls to choose books of normal genre that has to do with anything girly.
at one point,after stacey had chosen 2 marykate and ashley books and finn had 3(3!) mr midnight books,i made them to choose something else.
despite all my reccomendations which they (ERHEM) sniggered and eee-ed at,they still had a hard time finding books not of mr midnight.
finn finally chose a rather girly looking book on pony camp (never have i been so relieved to see a pink book) while stacey .... well...chose a mr midnight book.

we settled at a small table and after a few attempts to actually get them to open the books,they ran off to the toilets.
so i used that time to read up on one of the books from the mr midnight series.
the language was so so,sentence structure a tad bit weird and basically im not really fond of it.
BUT GUESS WHAT,
i ended up reading aloud the first chapter to the girls who were both mesmerized by my enchanting and melodious voice and NOT THE CONTENT.
LOL
we then took turns reading it aloud and i intro-ed to them words they didn't know the meaning off and asked them questions in between.
we were half way through the third chapter when we had to depart from the library.

seeing all those children books really reminded me of all those times of how i had savoured every picture and every word of those glossy pages filled with so much colour.
my mind would work overtime and my imagination would be stretched to the fullest.
that's the joy of reading right there.
which is why i don't really like mr midnight cause its soooo.....typical so to speak.
like dead and strict and colourless.
no more wonderous magic tree to climb and visit different lands,no more pony/ballet/summer/music camp,no more of things which are so wonderful they don't exist except in children books.

im not sure why im still awake.
went for work at 645am and because it was so crowded (i couldn't even stand straight,much less move) i escaped! -for breakfast and spent 2 hours on a bench near the playground reading the straits times cover to cover.
my hands was black by the time i was done.
i went back to my mom's shop and it still was in the same situation-16-20 women trying to shop in a shop thats so small its very small.MAKE SENSE RIGHT? LOL
i sucked it in (almost literally) and maanooveered around slickly while serving to irate and unstable customers.
had to tah han this for an hour before i gratefully took my leave and headed off to church.
i think a post on the different types of customers there are is going to be posted soon.
its bound to happen.
me going on a wild rampage of complains about my job.
hahas.

toodle loo.

went for sanctification night today!


wenyan:'so,where's your brother?' (NO IDEA WHY SHE ASKED OR CARED)

me:'er....somewhere at home..?' (LOL)

wenyan:'still say me and my sister never communicate.like you and your bro got'

me:'heyyy,we got lor...just now tell you about e armpit thingy le'

wenyan:'LOL'

then we shut up cause pastor eugene was preaching.


THE ARMPIT THINGY

me:*watching some random tv show*

bro:'hey jie,i got armpit hair le lehs' *lifts up right hand just to prove his point*

me:*squinting to see any*

a few milliseconds later,

me:(HIGHLY DISTURBED BY BRO'S AND MY OWN BEHEAVIOUR,LIKE WHY AM I EVEN TRYING TO SEE???)

SEE. WE DO TALK. I KNOW HE HAS ARMPIT HAIR NOW.

however when ever i think about my bro (which is not very often) i'd rembember he has armpit hair.
........
thanks alot.
hehs.

actually,i do really like this impromptu and stupidly sweet and funny exchanges.
you can't really do this with anyone else aside from your siblings.

toodle loo.

BTW HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLIVERRRRRRRR.
NOT SO SWEET 17TH!!!
HEHS.

my screen looks like this now and its irritating the crap out of me.
being the idiot that i am,i have no idea how to change the taskbar back to its initially normal state.
grrrrrrr.