I cannot believe spain got beaten,no scratch that.
They got TRASHED by fuggies france.
Must be their sucky hotel rooms which only cost a whooping 99 pounds per night.
Compared to the germans whose hotel rooms cost 3000+ pounds per night,those spainish hotties are sooo treated unfairly.
ahh yes.I've ranted enough.
Oh no wait.
MY AUSSIES.
....that referee is even more messed up than me that's for sure.
GRRR.
If the world cup finals was to have the same type of mistakes it will surely cause an uproar.
School/hell/pain/stress/pressure/grit/torture/bitterness/sleepless nights/heavy workload has now impended upon us.
I am sorely missing the holidays and I cheer whenever I see a holiday entry in my student companion.
School is different now-not in a good way.
Doesn't have the same feel as it had when I was a mere secondary 1 student.
I thought by the time I turned 16,I would have gained a better sense of who I am,of what I am going to do with my life and how I am going to do that.
The only things I have gained are mistakes and a sense of fore boding bitterness.
I have lost so much more.
I wonder what's left to loose by the time I turn 30.
Its 1 in the morning and I am positively sure I am going to doze off in class just like what I do everyday.
I berate myself every morning for sleeping at such a late hour the night before but I never learn.
I am stupid that way. ^^
So i will try to stop being stupid/silly/annoying/weird and er..sign off.
to0dles.
each day we die a little more..
Wednesday, June 28, 2006
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
searching,
I smile, I laugh,
in pretense.
They see, they believe,
in relief.
I've realised how hard is it to be a BETTER person.
Temptation and sin are like traps.
Those where once you are caught in, you are incapable of getting out of it.
The hole just gets deeper and you realise you are the one holding the spade and digging that hole.
Man,(man+woman)
so hard to please and yet they fail you so easily.
A friend of mine told me recently that since its impossible to please man, you know what?
just don't try to anymore.
One wrong move and all your efforts in trying to be decent is dashed with rude glances,smarting remarks,idiotic nicknames and being purposely excluded.
Why can some people get away with being angry for nothing while others aren't allowed to feel a single bit of raw unrestrained emotion without being accused of being petty and selfish?
Is that just how life and the rules of 'friendships' goes?
I don't think anyone knows what they are searching for.
The ULTIMATE ANSWER?
A love long lost?
Missing pieces of life?
Or simple contention?
For me, its just a breakthrough.
I've thought enough.
Going to loose myself in soccer.
toodles`
in pretense.
They see, they believe,
in relief.
I've realised how hard is it to be a BETTER person.
Temptation and sin are like traps.
Those where once you are caught in, you are incapable of getting out of it.
The hole just gets deeper and you realise you are the one holding the spade and digging that hole.
Man,(man+woman)
so hard to please and yet they fail you so easily.
A friend of mine told me recently that since its impossible to please man, you know what?
just don't try to anymore.
One wrong move and all your efforts in trying to be decent is dashed with rude glances,smarting remarks,idiotic nicknames and being purposely excluded.
Why can some people get away with being angry for nothing while others aren't allowed to feel a single bit of raw unrestrained emotion without being accused of being petty and selfish?
Is that just how life and the rules of 'friendships' goes?
I don't think anyone knows what they are searching for.
The ULTIMATE ANSWER?
A love long lost?
Missing pieces of life?
Or simple contention?
For me, its just a breakthrough.
I've thought enough.
Going to loose myself in soccer.
toodles`
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
all that jazz
Frankly,I find matches that finish in a tie a waste of time.
You spend 90 friggin minutes sitting on the edge of your seat,fingers wound tightly round a bottle of lukewarm beer,
eyes fully focused on the green screen infront of you and throat hoarse from screaming/groaning/moaning/sighing and all
the match returns to you is 2 big fat zeros.
Eh,I realised I might be exaggerating a tad bit and I don't drink beer while watching soccer matches but I'm just trying to capture
the whole essence of general anxiety.
The match between france and switzerland was in a sense a waste of my bloody time.
I wasn't really supporting either team so I actually don't know why I watched it.
hahas.
Brasil was one big disappointment.
Then again,I have already expected them not to do well since they can't seem to do well under pressure.
But hey,they won and thats what matters at the end of the day.
My lovable missable brother is off to BB camp!!!!!
6 BOXES OF SPACE IS MINE!!(my house)
THE COMPUTER IS UNDER MY ORDER AND THE TV REMOTE HAS ONLY ME FINGERING IT!!!
THE ENTIRE COUCH WAS MINE AND FOR ONCE IN A LONG TIME I COULD ACTUALLY STRETCH MY
LEGS OUT WITHOUT HITTING TILL MY BRO'S LEGS.
(actually I don't mind doing that.hitting him I mean)
WAHAHAHAHA.
I love camps.
Especially ones my bro have to go to.
*grins*
Today was my first official rotting day.
After chinese tuition in the morning,I basically went through the entire process of rotting.
It was computer,tv,computer,tv,computer,toilet,tv,computer.
You get the idea.
It wasn't all that jazz actually.
Felt highly .... er..whats the word??...ahh..yes..felt highly ROTTED.
I think I might just trot down to town myself tommorrow and pay a visit to borders.
Always had this idea in my head of spending an entire day in a book store.
Too bad wenyan just might be suffering from a supposed bout of chicken pox cause I was pla
Sigh.
And its so close to our tribe camp!!!
Sigh.
Lets all pray hard for her.
toodles.
You spend 90 friggin minutes sitting on the edge of your seat,fingers wound tightly round a bottle of lukewarm beer,
eyes fully focused on the green screen infront of you and throat hoarse from screaming/groaning/moaning/sighing and all
the match returns to you is 2 big fat zeros.
Eh,I realised I might be exaggerating a tad bit and I don't drink beer while watching soccer matches but I'm just trying to capture
the whole essence of general anxiety.
The match between france and switzerland was in a sense a waste of my bloody time.
I wasn't really supporting either team so I actually don't know why I watched it.
hahas.
Brasil was one big disappointment.
Then again,I have already expected them not to do well since they can't seem to do well under pressure.
But hey,they won and thats what matters at the end of the day.
My lovable missable brother is off to BB camp!!!!!
6 BOXES OF SPACE IS MINE!!(my house)
THE COMPUTER IS UNDER MY ORDER AND THE TV REMOTE HAS ONLY ME FINGERING IT!!!
THE ENTIRE COUCH WAS MINE AND FOR ONCE IN A LONG TIME I COULD ACTUALLY STRETCH MY
LEGS OUT WITHOUT HITTING TILL MY BRO'S LEGS.
(actually I don't mind doing that.hitting him I mean)
WAHAHAHAHA.
I love camps.
Especially ones my bro have to go to.
*grins*
Today was my first official rotting day.
After chinese tuition in the morning,I basically went through the entire process of rotting.
It was computer,tv,computer,tv,computer,toilet,tv,computer.
You get the idea.
It wasn't all that jazz actually.
Felt highly .... er..whats the word??...ahh..yes..felt highly ROTTED.
I think I might just trot down to town myself tommorrow and pay a visit to borders.
Always had this idea in my head of spending an entire day in a book store.
Too bad wenyan just might be suffering from a supposed bout of chicken pox cause I was pla
Sigh.
And its so close to our tribe camp!!!
Sigh.
Lets all pray hard for her.
toodles.
Monday, June 12, 2006
deep
I went out with peiyun,kahyuen and suling today.
On the bus,the words 'guys r 100% hao ren' was scrawled across on a back of a seat.
If that isn't a lie then I don't know what is.
I've came up with a theory on why this world is miserable.
MEN-jackasses.
WOMEN-biatches/bimbos.
CHILDREN-too pathologically honest.
The entire population sucks.
*grins*
Now,if that isn't a truth then I don't know what is.
Today was a blessing.
Simply because there was no school.
I'm such a easy person to please aren't I?
*laughs*
Caught 'the omen' at tp and I sorely wished I hadn't.
Not because the movie was bad or whatever,but since I was too much of a chicken to look at the screen I spent 1/2 the movie looking at my jacket.
Not easy putting your fingers in your ears for more than an hour okay.
I don't understand why I get myself into this type of situations.
I think I've said this lines plenty of times eh?
Sunday service was great.
Had a new and foreign speaker.
During cell,Miss Lim told us about her mount kinabulu and white water rafting experience.
She had a near death experience twice in a row.
We tittered and giggled among ourselves.
It seemed almost forbidden to laugh at death.
Wonder why.
Death ain't such a bad thing,just that sometimes it happens at the wrong time.
well..thats enough deep thinking for today for me.
hahas.
YEAH REAL DEEP.
toodles.
On the bus,the words 'guys r 100% hao ren' was scrawled across on a back of a seat.
If that isn't a lie then I don't know what is.
I've came up with a theory on why this world is miserable.
MEN-jackasses.
WOMEN-biatches/bimbos.
CHILDREN-too pathologically honest.
The entire population sucks.
*grins*
Now,if that isn't a truth then I don't know what is.
Today was a blessing.
Simply because there was no school.
I'm such a easy person to please aren't I?
*laughs*
Caught 'the omen' at tp and I sorely wished I hadn't.
Not because the movie was bad or whatever,but since I was too much of a chicken to look at the screen I spent 1/2 the movie looking at my jacket.
Not easy putting your fingers in your ears for more than an hour okay.
I don't understand why I get myself into this type of situations.
I think I've said this lines plenty of times eh?
Sunday service was great.
Had a new and foreign speaker.
During cell,Miss Lim told us about her mount kinabulu and white water rafting experience.
She had a near death experience twice in a row.
We tittered and giggled among ourselves.
It seemed almost forbidden to laugh at death.
Wonder why.
Death ain't such a bad thing,just that sometimes it happens at the wrong time.
well..thats enough deep thinking for today for me.
hahas.
YEAH REAL DEEP.
toodles.
Thursday, June 08, 2006
a
im currently on time budget.
know what that means??
meaning that its whats happens when your bro unofficially make the only computer in the house HIS computer and i am not even allowed to breathe the air that surrounds this computer.
i had to complete his hols history assignment to gain 1 hour of computer time.
i know.
I AM DESPERATE.
on to happier things,
TOMORROW IS THE BEGAINING OF A GREAT MONTH!!!
world cup world cup world cup.
hehehehe.
this week has been very un-hoildayish.
school is from 8-4 every freaking day and its worse than a proper school day.
wy called me at 710am today to tell me that the bag of lollipops is HEAVY.
i wearily said it was okay cause i had the supernatural strength from God.
Er..where did that come from??
lols
yah.but the bag was heavy.
never knew lollipops could weigh so heavily.
poured almost everyday after dnt.
or was it just yesterday and today??
my mind has been filed to pieces.
this happens after you spend 2 hours rubbing a piece of wet-and-dry paper on your acrylic workpiece.
gahhh.
oh..and my hairband melted because my head got to close to the strip heater.
im like.. WHAT THE??
lols.
went to watch the davinci code with char,rach and huimin.
the movie was so not worth it.
bland and boring compared to the book.
the images contoured out of my mind was far more interesting.
hahas.
toodles.
know what that means??
meaning that its whats happens when your bro unofficially make the only computer in the house HIS computer and i am not even allowed to breathe the air that surrounds this computer.
i had to complete his hols history assignment to gain 1 hour of computer time.
i know.
I AM DESPERATE.
on to happier things,
TOMORROW IS THE BEGAINING OF A GREAT MONTH!!!
world cup world cup world cup.
hehehehe.
this week has been very un-hoildayish.
school is from 8-4 every freaking day and its worse than a proper school day.
wy called me at 710am today to tell me that the bag of lollipops is HEAVY.
i wearily said it was okay cause i had the supernatural strength from God.
Er..where did that come from??
lols
yah.but the bag was heavy.
never knew lollipops could weigh so heavily.
poured almost everyday after dnt.
or was it just yesterday and today??
my mind has been filed to pieces.
this happens after you spend 2 hours rubbing a piece of wet-and-dry paper on your acrylic workpiece.
gahhh.
oh..and my hairband melted because my head got to close to the strip heater.
im like.. WHAT THE??
lols.
went to watch the davinci code with char,rach and huimin.
the movie was so not worth it.
bland and boring compared to the book.
the images contoured out of my mind was far more interesting.
hahas.
toodles.
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