soccer.

I'm a happy happy girl.
because...

LIVERPOOL WON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(crouch celebrating after scoring a header)
*does a flying leap off couch while screaming hysterically*

"YOU WILL NEVER WALK ALONE"
hehehe.


The match between tottenham hotspur and wigan was pretty entertaining as well.
Good football was played and 4 goals were scored.
During the sceond half,defoe scored the second goal within 15 seconds after wigan have scored their second score.
Wigan's happiness was short-lived.
Ah well.
that's soccer.

I've have not been able to really sort out of my priorities.
My slackiness is scaring me.
Somehow I can't seem to find the darn urge to study.
Find it hard to go against my sturbborn will of not wanting to study.

Weekends no longer serves as a means for me to relax anymore.
I spend more time thinking whether I should study then actually studying.
It's stupid isn't it?

I got real frustrated while doing or trying to do my math hmk today.
Vented on my frikkin brother who was a constant source of annoyance to me throughout the whole of today.
I chased him around the house with 2 metal chains in my hands and screamed till I drowned out the television.
At that point I think I was on the verge of entering maniac depression.
But it felt good to scream.
Even better to hit my bro on the butt.
LOLS.
Math has certainly made me Mad.

I think if I read back on this entry in the future I would scare myself with my 'craziness' and uncontrolled fury.

It's going to be stodood monday again and I hate that fact.
BAH!!


buhbye.

ss

...sometimes fate plays such a mean game with us...






A friend of mine recently told me that soccer matches are boring.
Er..NO WAY.
The brillant footwork.
The hysterical cheering.
The drops of sweat and blood dripping onto the field.
The uncontrolled euphoria the soccer players show after scoring a goal.
The unmasked frustration.
The colours.
The entire match is just overspilling with passion and emotions.
The passion of the spectators,the players and the coaches.

How can soccer be boring????


I think I going to drop amath.
What's the point of trying so darn hard to get it when I just simply can't.
So yeah.
That's that.

Another thing that I absolutely detest is CHI ASP.
Friggin thing should not be even invented.
I lasted for 1hour today before giving in to sleep.
It was raining!!
I had no chance of keeping awake!!
I have to say it was one of my soundliest sleep in school ever.

gtg

buhbyes.

vday

in the name of Vday,
i'd like to share with y'all my favourite all time 'love' song.

'Grow old with you' by adam sandler.
I wanna make you smile whenever you’re sad

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad

All I wanna do is grow old with you

I’ll get your medicine when your tummy aches

Build you a fire if the furnace breaks

Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I’ll miss you

I’ll kiss you

Give you my coat when you are cold

I’ll need youI’ll feed you

Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink

Put you to bed if you’ve had too much to drink

I could be the man who grows old with you

I wanna grow old with you





short but sweet.
and that's just fine with me.


ps:i still hate Vday,but with all the chocos and sweets i've recieved,it ain't so bad afterall.

lOls.
buhbye.

LOL.

im wondering when my motivation for studying will finally wear off..
hopefully it will refuel itself.

chinese asp started yesterday and my damn china teacher drove me nuts with her china-ism accentuated tone and voice.
i tried sleeping through it but i was really really aware of her voice the entire time.
but i manage to doze off only to be suddenly awaken when my SM(spiritual mother) passed by my class and stopped to glare at me.
WOOPS.
but it was a traumatising experience which drove me and ky to play with several games we have invented.
we kept sniggering and slapping our laps in laughter.
ky even asked me whether i wanted to play with her till we got sent to the HOD.
LOL.

my rebellious streak really comes out during amath and chinese.
for the last amath test,i spent 10 mins 'completing' the paper and the next 30 minutes writing my 'diary' and sleeping.
bliss.
but the annoying 'im the boss for now whether you like it or not' attitude of a relief teacher kept walking and i increased my font of my diary.
i was just 'bitching' about her then when she strolled pass.
LOL.
whatever.

buhbye.

bdae list

Since I don't have much to update on I might as well just reveal what I really really NEED for my SWEET 16 birthday!!!
So exciting rights?
Finally you guys get to know my deepest darkest desires!!!!
This is an event meant to be celebrated!
ANYWAYS..on with the programme.

First on the list-

An uber cool LIGHT SABRE!!

For some of you who have never seen a light sabre (eg yanshan,miss lim..yadayada)-this is IT!

Feeling enlightened?(im so totally crapping..-.-)

I could use this to kill all of our teachers!

So its really a NEED.

Next-

CHOCOLATE.

You know that deliciously sinful shit coloured looking of a mixture?

Yeah.THAT.

It sooo typical of me but hey..what the heck.

Third on this wonderful list is-

(please control your urge of wanting to strangle me when you see this)

Book voucherSSS!!!!!

I desperately need to stock up shelves so help me out would ya?

With this,you could actually shut me up!

Now doesn't that sound attractive?(you guys are suppose to disagree with me here *glares warningly*

AND lastly on this incredibly short but highly IMPORTANT list is-

My own room!

Hello,all teenagers have rights to have their own room and me sharing one with my brother is so wrong.

Oh,and I won't mind having a fireplace in my room as well.

Though it won't be a fart bit useful in humid Singapore.

Hmm...I know!

I could use it to burn all of my books and worksheets!

and oh..failed test papers.

hehe.

so thats it.

*off to daydream even more*

buhbye.

time slows.

...and suddenly the world slows down.








every sunday night i would unfailingly ask my mom whether i could skip school the next day.
her answer is always no and yet i keep asking.

you ask me how i felt about today and i would say all of this:
A BIG HO HUM.
as dull as dishwater,
as flat as pancakes
and basically dreary in comparison to the great and hectic weekend that i had.

keep reminding myself i must remain 'uplifting'.
lOls.
so far i guess it has worked a wheeny bitty bit.

yesterday's tribe meeting was filled with boisterous cheering and merry making.
it was good to see everyone once more.
we played several field games,1 and 1/4 of which i took part in.
why 1/4..?
cause my team never manage to pass the ball far enough to me and for that game i just stood there with the wind blowing about me and laughing at narash silly antics.
ALTHOUGH we came in last (yah,even with me in it..lol),i had lots of fun and was laughing for most of the time.
particularly uplifting moment was when i watched 10 people tried walking simultaneously together(in my group's case,the guys did more TO-ing and hopping than walking) to the finish line.
they all so looked so hilarious-in a good way.

the end soon came...

the winning team slunged their hands over each other shoulders and kicked their legs out while humming a song(forgotten which is it) and we hummed along with them.

it was one of those moments i would not forget.
everything seemed OKAY at that moment.
i felt like my life could be sorted out and that God would give me a new beginning.
to feel OKAY is all that i ask for.
to be able to laugh like that again,seemingly without worries.
that's what i'd strive for.

moments/

Life to me is-made up of moments.
scattered bits and pieces of moments.
all of which contains something special to you or something significant.

I saw this engraved on a certain cross before.
'Life is God's gift to us and what we do in this Life is our gift to God'.
I 'engraved' it on the back of my calculator when i was 13.
It still is there.

All these 'moments' makes living worthwhile.
They remind you why Life can be so great and for that 'moment' you believe you have something to live for.
Sometimes this is what keeps me going.

After going 2 weeks with SMART kids i realised today how much i missed it.
I arrived there completely drained with a consistent throb in my head.
But after 3 hours of playing,learning,singing,connecting with the kids-I felt refreshed once more.
Refreshed with God's love.
For a period of time I kinda lost myself in the whirlwind of CNY.
More temptations were set up and sadly to say I fell for most of them.

I'm still learning.
I also realised that they never said that being a Christian is easy.
Sometimes its even harder for us.
But you learn to handle things differently.
In a way that helps and benefits you and the people around you.
I'm glad for that.

I just got back from my uncle's 50th birthday.
Held plenty of moments for me.
I liked his hat too.
On it it says 'Older than dirt'.
He wore it most of the time during the party.
hahas.
We also watched the video taken down by Uncle yong during Grandma and Grandpa 60th anniversary celebration.

After that we went to 'visit' Uncle tong's house.
it was..high.
lOls.
it kind of took my breath away when i first saw it.
really stood out from all the other houses.
damn,i sure won't mind living in that house.

tommorrow is going to be exhausting for me.
what with 2 tuition before and after church.
and i've not completed my school work yet.
i have to wake at 745 tml and its already 3 am.

so im off.
buhbye.
godbless y'all.

ears pierced.

I woke up with the same splitting headache that I had yesterday.
It really really sucks.
I thought showering might help soothe the 'thud thud thud' in my head but it did nothing.
In fact,it seemed to make the pain clearer.
Perhaps there was a blood blockage in my nerves or something.
Either that or I had brain cancer.
NAHS.

Was already running late so I hastily applied 'feng you' on my temples.
Tasted the 'feng you' on my toast later.
DOTS.
As usual,my annoying nose picking bro left everything to the very last minute.
Fortunately for him,I was too distracted by the ache to find the strength to yell at him.
Yelling at your siblings is a good way to warm up your throat ya know.

Had math test during my first period and I got stumped on my first question.
I panicked.
To use frequency density or not to use?
THAT is the problem.
Ah whatever la,I ended up drawing a normal histogram-WHICH I cancelled out during the last 3 minutes of the test and drew one with frequency density.
I am soo fickle-minded.
Rest of the test was quite okay I guess..just hoping for a pass.
A simple pass that's all I ask.
HEY!that kinda rhymes.
lOls.
Did quite alot of things during CME.
We went online and did the OSCARS questionaire.
After that,quite a number of us visited our class webby.
Had fun with the chatroom.
lOls.
AND we also picked our mortals.
Ah shucks.I did not pick OYM.
damn saded.
Can't show my sarcastic side on stewpid V-day le.
hehehe.

suling.yanshan.wenyan.peiyun.cheryl.cindy.kahyuen and kaiting came over to my house after school today.
All of us crammed into my room and WRESTLED!!
im just kidding.eh hehe.
I refrained myself from gambling-only during the 2nd half.
But at least its an improvement from yesterday.
Watching people gamble ain't all that bad actually.
Esp. when 'people' consist of crazy characters like py and ky.
lOls.
Alot of potential blackmail material was videoed down by brillant and bored me.
pretty fun.

After that,we all trooped down to hougang mall-cept for ky.sl and cher.
First thing we did before wenyan changed her mind was to pierce our ears!
lOls.
It was kind of a spur of a moment thing.
I finally managed to pierce the upper part of my ears.
YAYS.
It stung a little but it was more of a burning sensation than anything else.
Walked around HM and bought a star.
hahas.
Also bought another 3 correction tapes to last me another month.
I have no idea why I use up tape so fast.
HMMM...must be the large amount of homework that I do!
yupp.
that must be it.

buhbye.
godbless.

weak me.

after getting back our first english compre test,i take back what i said yesterday about teachers not giving us our compre homework back.
they can totally keep it-i don't want them back.
heh.

had my first stint of gambling today at hengthye's place.
i tried not wanting to gamble.
really i tried.
but i gave in and promptly gambled away $6.
its really hard to not sin.
i kept reminding myself that there are no BUTS with GOD,and that earthly 'pleasures' just ain't worth it.
those words unfortunately did not stay processed in my mind.

im having a splitting headache now and im not sure why.
its really very annoying.

found out today that im quite a good pretender.
sometimes i even manage to kid myself as well.
is it a good or bad thing?
*shrugs*
who even cares right?

buhbye.

free period...?no??

sometimes i wish Singapore wasn't so 'modernized' and leave so many of its tradition behind.
namely,having a 15 days break for CNY.
won't that be delightful?
15 days worth of stuffing ourselves with pineapple tarts,taking in money,gambling away money and seeing red constantly.
sound magnifique eh?*sniggers*
but just giving us 4 days break is such a tease.
like they are taunting us saying..'hmm..you know what..let's give you all a little itty bitty taste of a WELL DESERVED break and then cut you guys 11 days short'.
*sighs*

anyways..........
school was the typical ,the norm,the usual,the .....(whatever else you can think up off).
im getting sick of comprehensions.
we do and do and do but we never get them back.
what's the point?
the teachers are SLACKING and we students are OVERWORKED.*lol*
for most of today,i was half absorbed in my dreams.
chemistry was easy.just copy copy copy then act smart when teacher called on me.
chinese was pretty interesting.hahas.
i only like it when she go through ke wen cause she would inject the lessons with many stories.
pe was painful and hilarious.
volleyball and mafia 7 don't mix well.hahas.
zadi almost caught my 'tattoo'.whew.luckily i hid my wrist fast enough.
recess was .... a mess.
my mind seemed to be malfunctioning.
english-'free period'-had to do stinky compre.
amath was er...actually..i have forgotten what we were learning.
i know,im terrible.
s.s was another 'free period'-had to do SBQ worksheet.
teachers are so unwilling to give us total free period nowadays.

off to study for phy test.
buhbye.