searching,

I smile, I laugh,
in pretense.
They see, they believe,
in relief.


I've realised how hard is it to be a BETTER person.
Temptation and sin are like traps.
Those where once you are caught in, you are incapable of getting out of it.
The hole just gets deeper and you realise you are the one holding the spade and digging that hole.


Man,(man+woman)
so hard to please and yet they fail you so easily.
A friend of mine told me recently that since its impossible to please man, you know what?
just don't try to anymore.
One wrong move and all your efforts in trying to be decent is dashed with rude glances,smarting remarks,idiotic nicknames and being purposely excluded.


Why can some people get away with being angry for nothing while others aren't allowed to feel a single bit of raw unrestrained emotion without being accused of being petty and selfish?
Is that just how life and the rules of 'friendships' goes?


I don't think anyone knows what they are searching for.
The ULTIMATE ANSWER?
A love long lost?
Missing pieces of life?
Or simple contention?
For me, its just a breakthrough.


I've thought enough.
Going to loose myself in soccer.

toodles`