paper thin lies

I am back from camp with a mild bout of post camp depression,tons of learning experience,muscle cramps everywhere and most importantly,NEW BLESSINGS OF GOD'S LOVE IN MY HEART.

I am reminded as well the power of the unity in a family and how it can overcome so much more,beyond each of our own ability.

I had gone to the camp,my heart for God all dried up and untouched.I felt so empty inside and was worried about almost everything,much less bother about brining people to God. During the first night of ministry, when Pastor SL called up people who needed healing,I convinced myself that I was doing alright and that I was too tired to get so...'emotional'. I actually denied the chance of meeting God !

After Pastor Jo shared her devotion the next day and gave us 3 questions,it really got me thinking about how I had been living my poly life and how I have treated my family. Because I didn't have the heart of God or the heart for the people,I had stopped even only TRYING to be a daily blessing to people.I then asked for God to give me a new heart for my polymates so that I would be able to reach out to them. During Pastor SL night ministry,after he preached on love, I went up and cried out my emptiness while Pastor prayed for me. It had been so long since I cried like that and I could FEEL again.The love God poured into my heart really refreshed me and gave me assurance of God's plan for me in SP.

During the 3rd day and last sharing session, I cried even more,tears which I thought I no longer have.I cried for my own sinful nature,my own helplessness,of how empty I am without God and for all the people I knew who didn't know God.I cried for the strength of God,for His grace to be in me because without Him,I won't be able to do crap.

THANKSGIVING!

Thankful

For being given the role of 'game marshall'. Before the start of the camp,I had protested against being a game marshall because that means I would be missing out on the games.It was heck load of fun though in an entirely different manner. I got to meet and interact with the whole family and pour water over people's head while their group tried singing through their chosen song as quickly as possible.I also spent the entire day under the sun,shifting buckets of water about while laughing my head off at the attempts of people searching for the bucket blind-folded and then trying to splash the other HERO.

Thankful

For the group I was put into. I got to meet new people and have them share their lives with me.I am also thankful for their encouragement and the fun we had together. Like when we had to walked from one length of the field tied together at our legs (all 40 of us at one go) or when we screamed/sang aloud 'JESUS LOVE ME THIS I KNOW,FOR THE BIBLE TELLS ME SO' while holding a chair at shoulder's height for 3 mins (this killed all our muscles in our arms).I also loved the silent walk in which all of us just worked as one by spirit and when we had to share the burden of carrying the casualties,we all worked together and took turns carrying them.

the finger marks i got from cheryl when we used our hands to carry the girl casualty.

she later wrote in the note for me that I would always remember her by this marks.

LOL

Thankful

For God working in me and changing small parts of me.Like how I would actually WANT to do quiet time or how less weird I am with my group or how because of all of SMARTkids meetings,I can now think quicker and be ready with a sharing within pastor's standard range of a whole 10 seconds.LOL

Quiet time in northbrook's attic.

Very nice place which had a balcony with a view of a field and it was real quiet.

I was doing my reflection for the day and unbeknownst to us,Joeygirl who was supposedly doing her reflection ended up taking all this pictures.

LOL

I think it was around 1230am or something.

They would only pose for me =)))

lol

jkjk.

I had difficulty sleeping on the first night though and ended up with less than 2 hours of sleep.

But still thankful that wenyan and yunyu was allocated to the same room as me.

Campfire night.

The night rang with laughter with our different skits,cheers and mass games.

My group's(moses+joseph comb strength)skit got EVERYONE laughing and even after I 'fainted' to the floor,I was covering my face and laughing at the antics of my group.

We then did the 'pass it on' song and huddled in a circle together while singing the song softly.

I can tell from the looks on our faces that it signified so much for each and everyone of us.

I was very sad on the last day toward the ending because I knew the real work of God is begainning and I was scared.So I just stoned and thought of lots of stuff while playing with bubbles.

random last pictures emma took.

me stoning on the ground with the bottle of bubbles after I had blown to my fill.