Oh don't you know it's right, to be self-aware and filled with light.

I'm here and I'm not here. Soon not being here would stop making a difference. Pardon me but my temperament has been as wild as the weather. I feel disappointed and unsettled and this is my way of handling it; by being mad at everything else that is irrelevant to the real situation. I'm such an indecisive bastard. Give me time and I'll be where I should be, that is, where God wants me to be.