Dear Fwen,
Feeling pretty messed-up now.Life is so not going my way..it never has.Was at Sophia's house yesterday.Spent quite alot of time on her computer.When there was nothing else for me to do..I wrote..yup..I wrote like I never have in this diary.I ranted and I felt good.I guess I just can't really open myself in this blog..there are somethings that is best you keep to yourself..After writing..I pondered whether or not to post it up..but I decided against it...so I deleted.Gone,erased never to be seen by another man kind.Ok..I sound a little too melodrama.Lol.
I kinda scared myself the other day.I was just packing away some stuff when I came upon my nail clipper...it shone..beckoning me...I was wondering..how would it feel to have it clip out my flesh..the last thing I was concern about was probably pain..I was already hurting anyways..what I am hurting from...thats a secret..but I held back...don't know why that happen..I have always thought that self-inflicting pain was stupid...yes its still stupid..I guess it was just a moment of ..I don't know really.....just pure curiosity? ..or ???
Its back to school tomorrow...and once it starts tomorrow..it won't stop.Probably going to be the most stressful part of this year..*dreads*.I keep telling myself..its just studying you get out a book..you read and memorise..don't get distracted...ya...self-assurance...sheesh.I really need a miracle right now...esp for my math...argh..speaking of which I still need to find a math tutor...dotZ.
Nothing major has happen today...quite mellow now...well afterall its a sunday...gosh..I jus realise that I have been updating every single day....definately not a good thing...I am getting wayyy addicted to the computer..how I survive last year without a computer for half a year baffles me...really.I really should learn some self-control...yup...like thats gona happen...who am I kidding...o well..
till then me..
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