paper thin lies

all the daily inner thoughts i struggle with will cause me to go absolutely berserk one day.
sometimes i am filled with so much emotions i don't want to deal with and the worse part is that i can't stop feeling that way.
i know the truth and yet some part of me just can't seem to grasp hold of it.
the whole human way of life is build on false facades.
of normality and sanity.
yet,there are so many troubling thoughts running through our minds and we all feel that no one else is as whacked up as ourselves when in fact everyone is.

i wonder how long i can take.
to dismally push away all those unwanted and trying emotions.
when will my barriers crack?
when will my numbness no longer protect me?
im finding it harder to wave away all those pain nonchalantly.





while waiting for the bus to orchard which all of us (200++) piled on to in all our pinkness.lol

with miss lim.

on a much much lighter note,i was kept busy for the entire day with SMARTkids and balloon sculpting training at orchard.
it was loads of fun thou i had the displeasure of knowing 2 other people who supported manu.
it was easy to approach people once they got the wind that we were giving out FREE balloons.
sculpting balloons is so not my thing,so i was the one doing the talking while my 2 other teammates did the sculpting.
we got along pretty okay i guess but colin kept daring me to give out his forever improportionate dog balloon sculptures.
hahas.
i had quality okay.
surprisingly,many lil girls opt for the sword rather than the dog.
but when we did the flowers that you could tie around their wrist,the lil girls were much more taken in.
once,i saw a boy holding a pink dog in his hand with a dismal expression written on his face.
i so had to laugh at that.

off to bed.
have to wake up at the inhumane hour 630am tml.
boohoos.