paper thin lies

My days and nights has been taken away by things I can scarcely remember doing. I've fell asleep with alcohol still coursing through my veins for a few nights now. My thoughts has no space in this new reality and even when I do try to gather them together, they no longer form like they used to. Maybe that's for the best...though I never really believed in this phrase before. What is the best? Situations are always changing and people are always evolving from their current state of mind. A 'best' situation can't exist long enough to matter. I spent a bit of time alone today. A long bus ride on the expressway followed by reading at the library. I'm rather good at being alone though that probably isn't much to be proud of. You make little difference to this world when you are alone.