pissed as usual

I'm super piss right now,
just like always.
Generally,I'm pissed at guys
freaking sorry excuse for living guys..
is it so hard to find a sweet sensitive normal guy?
guess not.
I am angry
But I can't show it for it will only invite conflict right?
I wish I could have retaliate,
but thats so not me.
My hol diet has been a downright flop.
I even tried envisioning all food as lumps of fats
doesn't work.
I am sick of people commenting about my weight,
and sick of trying to brush it off as if its nothing
coz its not.
But i guess I just love food to much.
is that such a sin?
People...just fucking diam la...
I am so sick of everyone's comments about me...
so tired of trying to supress my anger
So just shut up!
I'm losing my mind...