paper thin lies

another wave of dread sweeps over me.
i realise now i abhor being uncertain and yet knowing at the same time.
my heart plummets and then rises again after i recover myself.
%#$@*&%
why do i have to go through so much of this emotional mess?

my school camp starts on monday and its the first time i'm participating in a camp without knowing anyone.
gosh.
imagine if i come out of the camp the same way i entered it.
if that's the case,the next 3 years will be hell for me.
pray pray pray that it won't be true.
hopefully,when i look back at this entry 3 years later,i would laugh at my own silliness and paronoia.
must make friends no matter how uncomfortable i am with that.
I NEED TO BE LESS AWARE OF MY AWKWARDNESS.

my family keeps ragging on me about my laziness.
I'M ON HOLIDAY PEOPLE.
WADDAYAH THINK I'M DOING?
even having my own room can't stop their tirade of naggings and insults.

had dinner at newton hawker centre yesterday with wy,kelvin and joshua.

gosh,i never knew newton was so close to orchard.

2 short bustops to far east plaza!

i know,i sound like a goondo.

lol

wenyan stayed over yesterday and having 2 laptops really has its advantages.
heh.
honestly,i'm not sure why people find it so easy to fall asleep on my bed.
my bro and wy being the examples.
give them 5 minutes and they will be off to lala land while i need at least 30 minutes.
i've forgotten the number of times i've had to wake my bro up from my bed and chase him to his.
i had to wake wenyan up before she totally entered lala land with my precious blankie yesterday.
phew.

im offffffff.
whoooosh.