insanity

love evades me,
loneliness invites itself in.
jealousy is the blood that runs through my veins,
contentment is the scar crossed out on my wrist.


I've recently preferred to note down my musings in my journal instead of blogging.
Prolly since its like the period of gloomy things and such,my thinking tends to hold much deeper depth.
I ask myself questions such as, WHY DOES MY LIFE SUCKS? or WHY IS SCHOOL A NEED? or WHY I DON'T HAVE MUCH OF A LIFE AT ALL?
those are really deep questions eh?
PLUS my answers actually include very philosphical whining and highly intellectual complaining.
i know i know,my brain amazes me like,every millisecond of the day too.

Racial Harmony coming up.
Somehow I get this feeling it won't be ALL THAT despite this being the last year.

Still kind of UNWELL.
Sighs.
I wonder when will it ever end.
Always seem to last for eternity.

My head is throbbing.
Probably caused I breathed in too much fumes from chemistry practical today.
WAIT,my nose is freakin block!
I CAN'T BREATHE.
Guess I banged my head on the wall way too many times yesterday in frustration when I could not manage to find my nose which has fallen to godknows where.(the plastic surgeon forgot to actually put stitches into it!can you believe it?now i have to resort to tape.DANG)
Now I am really not making sense.
Kind of fun not making sense.
Sick of being logical,being understanding,being fine with anything.
BAH!
Now I know why people can actually become mad.
SENSIBILITY was too much for them.
DEFINATELY CRACKING UP.


sighs.
im off.
hope you all ENJOYED this entry.
i sure have.