ranted

I have come to the conclusion that human beings hate everything in this world,including our own species.We go around bombing one another,murdering our own spouses,humiliating each other on reality television,spreading around terminal diseases that we simply can't find a cure for (or is it on purpose?).We cheat,slander,gossip,ignore and play mind games with our FRIENDS.We sleep around with everybody else's spouse while squeezing money out of our own.We treat our pets like plastic dolls and destroy whole rainforest faster than you can spell out 'the amazon'.Politicians who are campaigning to be the ones to protect their countries can't even protect themselves from being shot in the chest.OUR LIVES ARE BAD SADISTIC JOKES which nobody laughs at.
You may ask,why am I so bitter when I have God in my life.That's because not all of the world's idiots are opening doors to let God into their lives and they are making me miserable.Its as if all human beings have this pernament mentality that LIFE can never be fair and it will never be cause that will just be too weird and too hard to keep up with.That's just sad cause then everyone will feel less inclined to commit sucide then.
Dad just gave us another one of his 'you must do the right thing' lectures.I once asked him,is doing the right thing always a good thing or the best thing?He said no.I left it at that.I should have further pursued the matter by asking,THEN WHY IS DOING THE RIGHT THING SO IMPORTANT?Perhpas I still don't get it yet as what's left of my naivety in me is still blinding me from the WHOLE sad truth.That by doing the right thing you get to pass your Os,you get to complete your degree without getting a drug overdose first and that you get to keep your 9-5 job which is the only thing that puts food into your ever expanding and ever needing belly.Perhaps that's why now we have to cultivate the 'habit' of doing the FREAKING right thing every SINGLE time!
I am in such a mood because my own father has just told us that we were bloody idiot.Is that a right thing?I don't very well think so,but why should all those high and almighty adults care right?They know WAY more than us and gone through all the MISTAKES there is to make and LOST so much more of their USELESS innocence to give way to MATURITY and bitterness.I don't get why all adults wants us-the younger generation to be resembling well oiled and mechanised machines.Take school for example,adults don't notice this,but in actual fact they are so much lazier than us.They tell us to stand.We stand.But are they happy with that?NO WAY HOSEA.We have to quick as coils of spring and alert as cheetas.When we sing we actually have to sing.Not just murmer the words out.Do they care that its actually more important to mean it in our hearts and than sound like we mean it?What's going to save Singapore?Citizens with true hearts or citizens with the ability to sing loudly but with a heart that has long ago nurture a hatred for its own country?When we greet the adults,we not only have to be heard but to be clear and pitched well as well.And like that's not enough,we are ordered to be QUIET when we walk off to our classes.THEY ARE CUTTING OFF OUR ONLY SAVING GRACE,OUR ABILITY TO COMMUNICATE WITH FELLOW VICTIMS.Now we aren't supposed to talk as well?Just walk stotically to our goddamn classes without a squeak?Line up in a line so straight that even a ruler would seem curved next to it?Then lift our chairs gracefully and placed them back on the shiny concrete floors that has been swept a trizillion times without a single sound?Greet the teacher with great pitch and emotion?IS THAT WHAT THEY WANT???THEN WHY NOT ORDER A BUNCH OF ROBOTS FROM EBAY AND LET THEM REPLACE US INSTEAD WHILE WE GO BE HUMAN BEINGS AND SWEET 16??Don't they want LIFE??Man are trying to drain life out of one another without even realizing it.I know that adults face alot of bullshit at work as well but that's cause all of them faced bullshit while they were young restless and sweet as well.Then when its their turn to be righteous and shitty adults they do the same thing to the next generation.Its a sick cycle.MAN SO NEED GOD"S HElP and SALVATION.*sighs*
28 JUNE O6.
thursday.
1236am.signing off.