so,being the genius we were,we figured shopping before the day of the RESULTS will help put our mind off it.
it was all fine and dandy for the first couple of hours but then the paranoia starts to kick in and then we started to psycho ourselves out.
it was so hard to stand such overwhelming emotions while doing something as mundane as shopping.
there were so many a time when i felt just like curling up and bleching all of that out.
looking at cheryl and wenyan i'd be reminded of tomorrow over and over again.
cheryl keep saying not to mention about tomorrow but she was the one who kept bringing it up!
once after walking out of zara,we all freak out together and we couldn't even walk.
wenyan had her hand to her heart and kept saying she could feel it beating while cheryl was plastered to the display window of zara,trying to calm herself down with the coolnes.
LOL
and i was like on panic mood,close to squatting and weeping out my nervousness.
psycho yes?
at the toy store,i felt so panicky,i started playing with the toys and did the same action over and over again.
wenyan said she felt scared by the way i play cause i had this empty look in my eyes.
haha.
i was trying to zone out from my anxiety la.
the same up and down motion of the bridge.LOL
dinner time was worse.
for me,any moment when i wasn't concentrating on anything else,i'd be thinking about tomorrow.
and i think alot when i eat.
whenever a silent moment approached,we would urge each other to talk so we won't even go THERE.
wenyan sweddish meat balls were damnnnn freaky la.
like some infected rotting balls.
me and cheryl didn't even dare to look at it but she finished it clean.
that's wenyan all right.
lol
anyways,it was definately a different 'shopping' experience though we spent more time freaking out than shopping.
*shrugs*
going to pray reallllll hard tonight.
lol
us.cool and calm.beware of those cool and quiet ones.lol
this entry has been far from normal
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